Hi all, I am not sure what I am trying to achieve with this post, maybe I jut want to be reassured that I am being silly. I started chatting to a man on OLD and we’ve been out once yesterday. I previously started other threads about how many bad dates I had been on and how I never seemed to fancy anyone. I turned down many, many invites to second dates.
Well, famous last words! Yesterday I met this guy and I most definitely fancy him. I think he is interested too, he already asked me out on a second date, although we haven’t pinned down a date. There was a little kiss at the end of the date :)
However, I am concerned he is “out of my league”. Here’s a breakdown:
- Him: 36, hugely successful job in investment finance, very posh and good looking. Mega expensive taste (skiing trip every weekend, sports car and yada yada). Lived in London and New York. Never married, no kids.
- Me: 29, good professional job in marketing for a corporation, well educated and “normal” middle-class upbringing. Lived in many different cities in Asia and Europe when I was younger. I think I am quite attractive, although not a model obviously. Never married, no kids
He is so sophisticated, so polished, so in control. I, on the other hand, am just a normal, nice, smart woman who bites her nails and is too lazy to iron her clothes. I feel so fascinated by this aura of “perfection”. I can’t help but thinking that he could never be seriously interested in a normal woman like me. Surely he’d want a relationship with a similar superhuman with a posh lifestyle. Probably a model, sigh!
I know how silly this sounds, and how insecure this makes me appear. I am actually pretty confident usually, but I am not used to moving in the kind of professional and social circles that this man is accustomed to.
I don’t know what I want to hear. This is so silly. It is so rare that I feel an instant attraction to someone and I am a bit scared of getting hurt down the line. Sigh!