OH just broke up with me over text 😭

[DC2018]

I've been with my OH for 18 months. I'm deeply in love with him, he is an attentive and caring boyfriend and we get on so well together. He tell me regularly he loves me but I have a severe mental health issue that often makes me cold and aggressive. I have been verbally abusive to him before and was extremely horrible on Friday night after heavy drinking. I apologised prefusely at the time but he was quiet all weekend.
I went home on Monday and text him earlier saying I hope he had a good day etc. He replied telling me he loved me but thinks we should split up as we both feel the same and it won't last so we shouldnt prolong it. I've text back telling him how sorry I am. That I love him and would do anything to make things right between us but will give him space to decide. He replied saying he is so angry at me and himself and needs space. I don't know what to do. I feel like my heart has been torn out. I know I deserve it but don't know how to make things right. I see a psychologist once a week so will see her on Friday but any advice would be gratefully accepted.

Struggling. I feel so lost and heartbroken . I know its my own doing so leaving him be but I know he will probably be then one that got away (and rightly so)
Thank you for your kindness x

listen.. giving him space is the best thing you can do.. don't believe for a minute that he has stopped caring or stopped thinking about you .. it's just not that easy.. given time you will feel better... be kind to yourself .. try to read or listen to music etc.. indulge those little things you yourself enjoy...

Sorry but he's obviously had enough of your behaviour, doesn't want any more abuse; and if he was posting on here his decision would be applauded (in fact he'd have been being advised to end the relationship for a little long time).

All you can do is try to solve your issues and from what you've written it seems like going tee total is an obvious part of the solution. Some folks just can't drink.nitd not the be all and end all, I stopped drinking for health reasons and honestly it doesn't matter; it's not important.

If he is 'the one', you will get another chance with him when you've sorted yourself out and he sees that. I believe if there's something exceptional, people find their way back to each other. Even if that doesn't happen there will be another good match for you, as long as you can treat someone decently.

(very long time)