So I've been working on a project with two colleagues and I've developed a slight crush on one of them because he has been so lovely to me and to work with. It was quite a stressful project and he really made me feel at ease and welcome.
Anyway he's not normally my type and I'm not sure physically how much I fancy him but at the same time I do love his personality and he makes me laugh and so I sort of do fancy him a bit now.
Our project came to an end last week and there's no reason for me to see him anymore as we are both moving on. But the last day of the project I got a feeling that maybe he liked me too, very huggy and touchy and all this week he has been messaging me. Yesterday he invited me for dinner with his friends and then to a concert and I agreed to go and he was very sweet and attentative and at the end he tried to kiss me. Except I think I was so startled I stopped it and blurted out 'won't this be awkward if we have to work together again' and I think I kind of killed the mood. I also didn't really want to kiss him in front of his friends.
basically the concert was at an end at that point anyway and i walked to the bus stop with him and it was all friendly but then we went our separate ways. I did message him to say I enjoyed myself and we should do it again and he just yes we shall which was very unlike the previous messages he'd been sending and I've not really heard from him.
I suppose I also feel quite nervous. It's been a long time since I kissed or dated anyone so I don't think I really handled it that well. And I'm not sure whether I want a long term thing or whether this would be a fling and what if it goes wrong.