I met a guy before Christmas and things are going amazingly well. We saw each other four times before he went back to his job which is abroad. I booked flights to see him in February and am really excited. Different things which have been long absent with other guys and which I've considered really important are there with him.
We just had a bit of a hiccup this morning and I just want advice on how to ensure this doesn't become a big deal.
We are really attracted to each other and make jokes and talk about having sex when I come over to him which I really enjoy and I am as big a part of the flirting and teasing as he is.
He went out last night and I woke up this morning to texts about what he would like to do to me when I go to see him. Obviously I replied and he rang and we were talking about it and other General stuff aswell like our plans for the day etc.
The problem is that I got a bit freaked out when he asked me ny view on two things and maybe told him more than I should have. He asked what my view was on being slapped and also him cumming on my face.
I said they were an absolute no no and he said he would never slap me during it or any other time and he only asked about cumming on my face as he thought it would be nice to come on my chest and he would just like to know that if it went in that general area that I wouldn't be cross. That was fine and we continued our conversation about General things and we were in good mood when we hung up.
He texted then and said he hoped I didn't think he was a creep but he was really looking forward to it and doing the things we spoke about. I then got a bit freaked out and said that was fine apart from doing the things I said were no nos and I would be upset if he did.
Then I stupidly mentioned that how something not very nice happened me when I was young (abuse by a neighbour) and that's probably why I freaked out about those two things and I didn't know why but that it was my issue and I was sorry for going weird on him. We spoke on the phone again and he said it was grand and I wasn't to be worrying about anything. He never mentioned what I told him about the abuse and he said we would talk later.
I'm here second guessing myself that a) I shouldn't have told him about the abuse as It's my issue and he doesn't need to know and
b) that why did I get so freaked out and almost upset when he mentioned those two things, even though he reassured me he didn't want to do either of them but part of me is wondering why mention them.
What do I say later when he texts as I feel a bit awkward about things and I really really like him so don't want him to think he can never talk about that kind of stuff to me. How can I smooth things over because it was a bit awkward on the phone?