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Battling on!

981 replies

lollipop7 · 31/10/2017 20:06

So I'm starting a new thread following on from 0I don't know what to do" as we're almost full.
Blimey! How did that happen!

Seems lots of you are rather ruddy marvellous and want to keep going on this journey with me so I'm opening a new chapter.
Will be back with a proper update later 💐

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ElephantsandTigers · 08/11/2017 20:54

Just seen the photo. Baby Lollipop is THE cutest baby I have ever seen on MN and I've been on here since 2015!

ElephantsandTigers · 08/11/2017 20:57

Ffs 2005

Loopyboo · 08/11/2017 21:37

Been following your story as I'm in a very similar position and pregnant.
Well done and congratulations! He's absolutely gorgeous and lucky to have a mummy like you xxx

AbbieLexie · 08/11/2017 23:55

Delurking - congratulation - he's wonderful. I'm also in your corner rooting for you and your family.

lollipop7 · 09/11/2017 10:05

Thanks for all your messages.

I feel like some sort of celebrity- well baby lollipop does 😉
We've had a stressful 24 hours as his blood sugars dropped and had to be readmitted. He's done very well though and tube feeding stopped now. He's got a tricky tongue tie so perhaps that's he culprit. Feeding going well now my milk is in.

He's a little trouper, how I love him 😍

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AvoidingDM · 09/11/2017 10:10

Aww poor wee guy hope you get him home soon. Take good care of yourself.

Slingsanderrors · 09/11/2017 10:40

You are a celebrity lollipop, you're a star!
Glad feedings going well and blood sugars are sorted. xx

hellsbellsmelons · 09/11/2017 10:46

Hell yeah - You are A list!!!

jayne1384 · 09/11/2017 12:34

Congratulations! He is beautiful and you are amazing!! Xx

HuckfromScandal · 09/11/2017 16:22

Gorgeous!! So happy that he is here safely.
All the very best to you Lolly xxx

Autumnchill · 09/11/2017 17:24

Delurking to say a huge congratulations for someone whose thread has amazed me with the strength and courage you’ve got with all the challenges you are facing Flowers

Bratsandtwats · 09/11/2017 17:27

Can't believe I missed the big announcement!

Congratulations!!

holdbackonthewine · 09/11/2017 18:22

And your STBXH has stayed away?

lollipop7 · 09/11/2017 21:02

We're not married.
Thank Fuck.

I haven't even told him.i don't know how to and I'm too bloody terrified. Not having a good night. Baby is doing better thank goodness but I'm drained, have hardly eaten and awful emails from him and all voicemails from the solicitors pinging away at me. I've not slept for three nights, my breasts are on fire and half my stitches have come out thanks to constantly getting in and out of a hospital bed. So need to get them done again.

Everything gets ruined. I can't even have my baby and it not be spoiled by stress and unhappiness. Just massive big murky shadows cast all over. I feel so sorry for the little mite. We don't even have a home, i brought him home in things friends had given to me and a borrowed car seat. I don't have a pram for him, he's sleeping in a fucking travel cot in my childhood bedroom whilst I fall apart and barely even see my other children.

I don't think I can do it all anymore.

Sorry another wobble I know. I'm not depressed or being hormonal I'm frightened. Really frightened. Of the whole future whichever way I turn

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RandomMess · 09/11/2017 21:04
Flowers

It’s completely understandable that you are feeling so vulnerable. Deep breaths and only read emails from solicitor.

Speak to police again about ongoing harassment from ex?

JaneEyre70 · 09/11/2017 21:12

Your adrenaline levels are crashing, and little wonder. Tuck yourself up in bed and rest. You aren't superwoman, you are human and you've just given birth. Don't open anything he sends you, emails letters texts whatever.....he isn't worth your time right now. He can wait until you are strong enough to deal with him again Flowers.

lollipop7 · 09/11/2017 21:36

I have to because at the moment I have no solicitor until all the files have transferred which they're still doing.

He's bullying me relentlessly about this Court Order acting as though he's not breached it. And I have to respond because he will pitch up here otherwise.

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MrsBertBibby · 09/11/2017 21:47

No, you don't. Let him pitch up, let the police deal. He isn't supposed to contact you, so act like he hasn't.

RandomMess · 09/11/2017 21:48

Let him turn up and call the police on him. You have told him it has been breached and therefore it’s going back to court.

He is getting off in intimidating you.

JWrecks · 09/11/2017 22:00

Yes, completely IGNORE anything that comes from him! If you want, call the police, as he's breaching the court order (AGAIN) and is not to be contacting you. It would be a good idea to keep them apprised of his behaviours and his breaches. But that's obviously up to you as you're... what's the technical term here? Oh yes, A BIT BLOODY BUSY!!

As for the solicitors, as important as their work may be, you've got time still (iirc), so I'd be tempted to send a quick, possibly terse, "I've just given birth mere days ago and have my hands just a bit full atm. Could you give me a few days, please ffs?' and then leave it at that for as long as you need.

Oh Lolli, how I wish this would all just go away for you love. I wish I could take it off you, or help somehow. It's so fucking unfair. But you are doing fine. You are doing wonderfully!

It may not look like you've got much now, but look what you're up against! Look what you're battling through! Look what you've just escaped from! You are doing AWESOMELY when you look at all of it in one picture!

My family (Mum and DS&DBs) were DIRT POOR when I was a kid, and I had no clue. I can't adequately explain to you how poor. All of us had to live with my DGP and my youngest uncle for years. Then we also lived in a caravan with anywhere between SEVEN AND TEN PEOPLE (depending on the day) for several years, and I never once thought that maybe we didn't have anything, not until I was a teenager! Young kids don't know nor care that their seat is borrowed, that they're on a travel cot and not some expensive silken basket, that their onesies came down from their older DB, or any of that. And being told 'no, you can't have and don't need that useless expensive thing' is indeed character building! :) It's not just a cliche! It's made me a very frugal, very practical person. So don't worry about that stuff for them.

You love your kids fiercely and they love you, and that is literally all that matters. For the first years, all that DC need is the very basics - food, somewhere warm to sleep, four walls - and Mummy's love, and you've got more than enough of that! Anything else can be improvised. They don't need the fanciest gadgets, they don't need expensive toys (they always prefer the bloody box it came in anyhow!), they don't need special nappies or organic strawberries or 'smart' technology. Of course having a bit more makes things easier, but I assure you, your DC will be perfectly happy and fulfilled just as you are. And you WILL get through this and move on.

Please, if there is every anything we can do, please just tell us. And as always, we are here for you. Flowers Cuddles to the beautiful new boy and the other DC from the internet!

And... I know it's a bit early for this, but might I suggest... I've been thinking, once you're finished with all this mess and all of the legal things are settled, you may want to look into working for some kind of specialist solicitor or a women's shelter / legal aid company! Maybe even start your own, a company to help women and mums navigate the legal world of leaving an abusive DP or perhaps oversee or keep on solicitors? You've learned so much, and done soooo much of this all on your own, it seems you've got quite the knack for it! You're a right natural!

holdbackonthewine · 09/11/2017 22:01

I can understand how intimidating the thought of him turning up is. Without a current solicitor is there someone who could advocate for you? Would women’s aid help out?

Just someone to filter the correspondence to take the pressure off you. You’re a highly intelligent woman and intellectually you know this is partly about hormones crashing down but it doesn’t help does it?

Can your mum tell the police he is still hounding you and tell them you’ve given birth and are home? Perhaps you’d be up to receiving a visit from the police (who have been good so far as I understand it).

Presumably the midwife comes and will hand over to the HV? Can you let her know your situation and get some support there? I’m aware HVs seem to be less involved than in my day (I’m ancient) but I assume it’s because they’re concentrating on people who need them like you. I hope so.

Chin up Lollipop you have this, don’t give up, you’ve come so very far.

JWrecks · 09/11/2017 22:13

Oops, just seen your last update while I was typing (my novel omg).

Agree with PP: Let him turn up, then call the police on him. You've got the records that show he cannot contact you, so call them and let them sort.

You do not need to be dealing with his awful arse right now on top of everything else. Let the police do it.

Florida28 · 10/11/2017 07:55

Hey Lolli I hope you got some rest last night... 1st a huge congratulations on the arrival of your beautiful boy. He's gorgeous Bear
Don't let that waste of space take up anymore of us head space. Leave him to his own devices and fall back on the police if you have to. Ur strength, courage and determination to make a better life for you and ur 3 beautiful kids continue to amaze me.
I can imagine how exhausting it must be so I hope you get to rest up and enjoy the new arrival as much as possible BrewCake

Frouby · 10/11/2017 08:11

If you do nothing else today love phone the police and report his ongoing harassment. You have the court order now as does he I presume so he has no excuse for breaching it. They might even haul his arse in and charge him with something.

You need time to recover from your birth and you aren't getting it. No wonder you feel so vulnerable. If you dont feel able to phone the police then maybe your mam could. Gentle, gentle hugs from me xx

OnTheRise · 10/11/2017 08:28

Oh, Lollipop. I really feel for you. You poor thing.

First, your baby doesn't care that you are dressing him in clothes that have been given to you. He is just happy to be with you, safe and warm.

Second, you don't have to put up with your ex contacting you. He's not meant to be contacting you and is in breach of orders by doing so, isn't he? So tell the police. Let them deal with him.

Third, you say you're not hormonal but I bet you are. You've just had a baby! I'm not saying this to make you feel bad, but to try to support you. You've had so much to deal with and having a baby is hard work even when you aren't under stress. Ask everyone around you for help. Tell the hospital you need more support.

I am sending you love and best wishes every day. You're doing so well, even if you don't think you are.