DHleft me out of the blue two months ago. It was a huge shock although once I had time to think about it I could see that things had been not good for about a year. He came back after couple of days and we had been working to make things better. He finds it really difficult to talk about the past as it is so painful for him so I had been focussing on the small stuff, trying to make life more fun, talk more, listen better etc.
Anyway, until last weekend I thought that it was working well and we felt much closer. I mentioned to him that it was getting better and he obviously didn't feel the same way. I got upset and he went off in the car for a few hours.
For the past week I have been feeling more and more anxious and he has gradually started to pull away from me. I talked to him on Thursday night, asking him to think about counselling and pointing out that we both need to want to marriage work to recover. I was devastated when he said that he isn't sure if He wants it badly enough.
He had to work last night and messaged me this morning that he needs some space to think things through and hopefully he will come home this evening. I am desperate to call him but trying really hard not to.
We have been married for nearly 20 years and have a wonderful life and family and I don't understand how he might be prepared to walk away from it all.
I have booked an appointment at a relationship counsellor on Monday as I think that I might need the help, but am really hoping that he will want to come with me.
Please be kind, I need some strength and support at this point.