The Brave Babes Battle Bus - Go Sober For October?

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Hello, 'tis me, Mouseface, welcome to the Bus, aka Gerarld.

We're a bus full of various Babes, from those who are as dry the Sahara, those who drink in moderation, those who binge drink and can go for weeks without a drop and then fall arse over tit (pardon the french!) straight off the bus and into the sidecar, and then we have Babes who try every single day to give up.

The thing is, we all do 'this' ONE DAY AT A TIME and with passion too. You have to WANT to stop with every fibre of your being.

And that's what this bus is about. We support each other. No matter how many times you fall of the Bus, we'll always be here to scoop you back up and listen.

So, come and join us. Lurk, or grab a seat, make sure you're comfy and enjoy the journey as we talk about the dreaded drink, plus everything from how expensive Tena Lady's are, to what's in the slow cooker!

We don't judge, this isn't a competition, it's our lives.

And if you'd like to read the last thread, HERE IT IS

Plus, if you'd like to see where the Bus started out, you can RIGHT HERE

Hope to see you soon xx

MsHoolie I am so glad you have your mum to lean on. Hope you're doing OK this morning and that you manage to get the support you need x

Morning! How is everyone? How are you doing MsHoolie?

ma did you get to touch the Ginger One? At least you got close enough where sniffing and kissing were a possibility . And you didn't fall over! Huzzah!

Today has started so well. I overslept this morning so DS has gone off to school in a sulk as he'll be late. Work have decided to be absolute FUCKERS about a standby rota change next week, that I made (with permission) back in JUNE, I've bought tickets to a concert AND I AM GOING! I am FUMMING .

I'm giving blood this afternoon for the first time. Something I would never have done before in case pure Merlot came out of my veins . According to the bumpf I'm not supposed to get stressed before the appointment. Yeah right. My shoulders are up round my eyes already. Gah! At least I'm not hungover which is A Good Thing.

steeple bloody well done you..
I shook hand with the ginger one and he smiled at me and said " Congratulations, well done. do you fancy a shag". And I said " thank you very much, god yes, take me now"
Or something like that....

Epic strike out fail

"I drank to forget the person drinking had made me become"

Read this on a blog today and it really struck a chord. Sober now and slowly stripping away the layers of that person , it is amazing what you can see and feel with a set of "fresh eyes" ie not drunk/hungover ones. One day at a time.

Demented - best strike out fail ever!

How are you doing MsHoolie have you managed to get back to London?

Hope everyone is doing ok tonight. I slept better last night but still not yet reached Miss Perky levels but hopefully they will come.

Everything is pretty shit TBH. I'm still at my parents and I'm still drinking as, if I try to just stop, I just end up shaking violently, sweating buckets, apparently looking as white as a ghost, feeling confused and throwing up
I -need to get back to London where there are 2 walk in services within 5 minutes of me and they can both prescribe.
But then I think that I absolutely don't want to go home in this state.
But then I doubt see how I'm going to get better here
I spoke to DD tonight and she sounded so upset about me not coming home today but said that she totally understood
She's unfathomable a lot of the time like many 15 year old girl but she's allowed the be like that - within reason.

Off to sleep now I hope. One glass of red wine that’s all. Moderation going well. Still unwell (unrelated) but sleeping much better when sober.

Hope you’re okay tonight MrsHoolie and managed to contact your home GP.

Hey all ..... Well I had such good intentions for October epic fail :-(
I have cut down I guess, but have only manage 2 totally AF days and last weekend wasn't great.... I'm still determined to keep trying though- have downloaded and started reading Jason vale on my kindle - does it help? I'm not sure so far but trying to keep an open mind.
I'm not ever going to be a prolific poster on here but reading everyone's stories and seeing how brave you all are helps me massively - thank you

Morning Brave Babes
Just wanted to wish everyone a positive Thursday. Photo of dawn darn sarf. It is not an easy fight, one day, hour, second at a time. Don't look too far ahead, just deal with the moment. Distract, distract, distract.

Morning. Well, I spent last night in the side car . Bloody work thing has got me so wound up and angry I had a bottle of wine. Fuck sticks. Still, I suppose it was an improvement of sorts. I just had the one which I sipped slowly over the entire evening and instead of scratching around for something else once I'd finished I had a AF beer and two cups of tea and went to bed. Hmmmm. I need to look at how I cope with situations that make me angry I guess.

That photo is beautiful Spanna. I'll have a bacon butty if I may .

Hi all. Spanna great to see you and thanks for breakfast! Mmmm, bacon..

Doris, you haven't failed - you've cut down which is great, and you're being mindful. One day at a time. I know Jason Vale has been helpful to lots of babes (I didn't really get on with it, but that's just me), so I hope you get something from it.

MsHoolie, really hope you can get home soon.

Day 39 here, been fine for the last few days and then woke up at 6am desperate, desperate, desperate for alcohol. Totally unsure why (my own personal yardarm always used to be 11am so I'm not a 6am drinker even at the best/worst of times). Have managed to resist and consume virtual bacon sarnies instead. But the WW is a sneaky old beast. Grr.

Hope everyone is ok.

Smallfox Congrats on Day 39!! Fabulous!

Day 4 AF for me today (or Day 12 if you can discount 1 drink!) - I am out tonight but am aiming to only have 1 drink (and not wine!) fingers crossed!

Thanks spanna

Sorry meant smallfox - oops

I've not posted much but following progress of many of when I can keep up. MrsHoolie I really hope you can get the right medical help soon, stay strong.

I've been AF for nearly 3 weeks and have faced a couple of challenges. Fortunately friends and family have been supportive of the Sober October thing, but not many realise how worried about it I was getting. Still hoping to moderate when we get to next month!

I really am so in awe of all of you that are beating this, even if you've only managed one day. That's more than I've done for more than about 2 years.
I'm going to go home on Saturday. I've told DH that I've been given official advice to not stop drinking- that doesn't mean I can spend my time constantly plastered but I need to have a certain amount of alcohol to stop DT's or fits.
I have spoken to the project I plan to attend in London and I actually managed to speak to a doctor who told me categorically that they can prescribe medication and that they do community detoxes all the time.
Partly due to the NHS cuts, you have to be drinking at a huge level to qualify for an inpatient detox.
I'm at 150+ units a week so I dread to think about the state of people who meet the threshold for an inpatient detox.
Because you need meds 4 times a day, I think they collaborate with the home treatment team. That will be really awkward for me because I worked in that borough, where I also live, for 17 years so it's almost certain that somebody is going to turn up at my house to administer medication who I know/have worked with.
But I'm just beyond caring about that now. If they're going to judge me, they're in the wrong job.
I have known quite a few mental health professionals who talk the talk and tell patients 'Don't feel ashamed, it can happen to anyone' whilst quietly telling themselves that it would never happen to them.
The best psychiatrist I have ever worked with had post partum psychosis and literally had to be caught by Police after jumping off a multi storey car park with her 6 day old baby and spent 4 months in a mother and baby unit.
I honestly believe that addiction and mental health problems can affect anyone, it's something I feel really passionately about.
So I will go home on Saturday, go to this walk in place on Monday and, if I end up getting seen by someone I know or have worked with, so be it. If they want to judge me, they're in the wrong job.
I actually feel more positive than I have for a long time even though I know there's a long hard road ahead.
I honestly can't thank you all enough for your support. As a nurse, I do find it difficult to be in the role of the person that needs help.
When I get through this, I really would love to be able others who are struggling.

*able to help

MsHoolies you are so right! If anyone is going to judge, they are in the wrong job!

There but for the grace of god, mshoolie.

MsHooliesCardigan
I think you are a pretty amazing woman.
Good luck with it all. We are all rooting for you.

Ma

Just checking in to let you all know I'm still around. I'm absolutely floored with a nasty virus right now. So back to my sick bed for now.

Thinking of you MrsHoolies, you sound like a pretty amazing babe to me. You CAN do this.

Thanks for breakfast offerings Spanna - very good timing as today is my birthday! So mine’s a butty with a candle in please. Been out for lunch in the sunshine, day 55, first birthday (apart from pregnant ones) that I’ve been AF since I was about 13. And today I am a long way from 13!

Well done Fox on day 39! And likewise Minnie on your 3 weeks. Sorry not to NC more people, in need of an early night, think my descent into middle age is catching up with me!

mrshoolie you are awesome. You have gone from being at rock bottom to having a plan. You have identified people who will.help you. You have spoken to your family. You are loved and there are people in your corner. Be proud of how far you have come already.

demented Thank you. I don't feel awesome, I feel like a pathetic waste of space but I do have a sense of determination that I haven't felt for a long time. I will do this.
Fist bumps to all of you battling the wine witch.

Small 39 days is fucking amazing. Keep going xx