A few years ago I went on a night out with my then partner and our respective best friends. My friend and I are fairly big drinkers to set the scene so I'm no lightweight. I had about 2 or 3 drinks with my friend before we met the ex and his friend. We had one drink with them, which I only remember about half of. The rest of the night is hazy images of my ex arguing with me and his friend (filthy creep) with his arm around me. Ex's friend treats women appallingly. He's vile. Anyway I woke up the next morning in my own bed. Ex was downstairs on the phone to his friend whispering. Ex started having a go at me for how out of it I was. My mobile phone had loads of texts from his friend asking me if I was ok and with his address on for me to go there!! The thing is, the next morning I felt like I'd had sex (you know don't you). I felt sore. I am 99.9% sure that one of them spiked my drink. I know they did as I can hold my drink well and I hadn't had much, I'd eaten before going out etc. If anyone had sex with me it was my ex, while I was unconscious. There's nothing at all I can do about it now but I was thinking about it (I do quite a lot) and I should have gone straight to the police shouldn't I? I stayed with him knowing this about him. I never mentioned knowing (or believing) what he'd done. I felt crap anyway after how the night had gone. Just lately I keep getting angry about it. I'm NC with my ex and he would never admit this anyway. From what I've said do you think he did? He was not a sexually abusive man generally although our sex life was awful throughout. His friend was sexually abusive to women. It makes me feel sick thinking about it. I'm going out with the same female friend later (she did her best to keep me safe that night), I've never spoken to her about what happened as she hated my ex anyway. I'm just not sure how to deal with it. I feel like I need to know the truth