It's my 35th birthday tomorrow and it just dawned on me that for the first time in 9 years there will be no one there with me. Dh walked out for OW about 11 months ago and whilst I feel generally a lot stronger and mostly positive, it has just hit me now.
I used to love to wake up to coffee brought to me in bed, flowers etc. Tomorrow morning I will wake up alone and it'll just be like every other morning. I know he's been a dickhead and long term I'm better off without him, but right now I'm miserable.
I am going out with friends at the weekend and will get messages etc from family (too far away to visit) but I can't seem to shake the sadness today.
AIBU to feel like that even though, all things considered, things are not that bad?