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I need to leave but I just don't know how. He has hit me and our baby girl.

62 replies

EmEmilyEm · 07/05/2017 01:55

Oh please help. I don't know what to do anymore. I really want to leave but whenever I try it's like I freeze and I just can't explain it and I know that sounds stupid and I have told myself day after day about how stupid it is but it just doesn't change the fact I can't physically do it. I am so worried about everything. I lost my job and have no way of getting any money so I need to stay it's like if I go I will ruin my daughter and if I stay I will. Will the council help? It's so overstretched and I don't want them to put her into care. I need to be able to stop freezing whenever I try to leave but I just can't stop that.

My arms are killing, he has grabbed them really hard tonight and they just ache I have had enough my poor little girl was pushed over and wouldn't stop crying she seems ok now but I don't want her to think that's ok but I tried packing a bag and going but I just froze and couldn't, I went into a panic attack and he came and just held me down pretending he was being nice but he knew it would make my breathing worse, but he made me feel like it was me being an idiot that was making me panic.

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debbs77 · 07/05/2017 10:21

To the person phoning the police, well done! At least someone is doing something xx

2tiredtothinkofausername · 07/05/2017 10:21

I used to deal with DV victims as part of my work on a regular basis. I have always been humbled by the courage it takes to leave a violent bully, it is very hard to take that final step. But you know what by reaching out here you have a toe out the door. Just keep going, I know you can do it.

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2tiredtothinkofausername · 07/05/2017 10:24

Also take the advice here about Women's Aid. The practical stuff is important, they'll tell you what to do xxxx

thethoughtfox · 07/05/2017 10:32

You can leave when you are calm; when he is out of the house and you have support. Could someone come and help you pack?

BigGrannyPants · 07/05/2017 10:34

OP call women's aid, and the police. Please don't let this continue for you and your DDs sake. You need to protect her, lock him out, leave him, take your DD out of that situation and yourself. Please.

Redhead17 · 07/05/2017 15:58

It's hard and it's scary, trust me I have been there.

I knew I had to leave I spent time stockpiling whatever cash I could I took all passports etc

I confided in my GP and he was amazing, he was the only person I ever told and he supported me.

The domestic violence helpline were my other lifeline and the samaritans.

The arse holes never ever change don't fall for their manipulation, they don't mean it and they certainly don't like people knowing what they are really like I was told no one will believe you but when he was slapped with a non molestation order, arrested he soon changed his tune because any abuse be it physical or mental is still abuse, the worst thing with emotional abuse is proving it, keep notes and keep safe, have a safety plan.

If you think you can't pack, tell yourself I'm packing for a couple of days I'll be back but don't come back.

I was absolutely prettified I would loose my children, I sat in my doctors offices snot bubbles the lot, begging him to help me escape as I trusted him and please don't let me loose my children and you know what I didn't, social services didn't even visit me, CAFCASS didn't visit either, you know why? Because I am a damn good mother despite what he said, people saw though him and they saw that I done all I could to protect myself and my kids, I told the school I was honest with who I needed to be honest with and I was supported.

It's scary to leave but living in fear of what he might do next is not healthy. I really feel for you. I got out and I am here to tell the tale

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heyday · 07/05/2017 19:43

Unless a person's life is in immediate danger I can't imagine that most people would be able to just up and leave. To leave one's home, one's belongings, one's normality and security... that is terrifying! Perhaps the best thing to do would be to gather all your personal documents together such as bank cards, passport, birth certificates etc and keep them safely deposited with a trusted friend. Then phone Women's Aid and simply talk to someone. Once you know a bit more about the practicalities and difficulties of leaving and importantly, how to overcome them, then you may have gained just a little bit more courage. Staying is scary, leaving is sometimes even more scary but hopefully, with the right advice, you can see a way forward and gain the strength to make the right choices for you and your DC'S lives.

PovertyJetset · 07/05/2017 19:47

Real life support?

Get some advice, call woman's aid.

Grannyben · 07/05/2017 19:53

Do you have any family or a friend who can help you my darling girl. My heart is breaking for you but if you can just tell one person you will start your journey to a new life, just one step at a time xx

AutumnalLeaves38 · 13/05/2017 22:07

OP,

On the off-chance you get to read this, I just wanted to say I hope you and your DD have been safe and ok.
I've thought about you both throughout this past week.

Wishing you both a much better time,
Take care. Flowers

user1468353179 · 13/05/2017 22:11

My friend works for a refuge. Grab your daughter and get to SS, they'll help you.

Foncy87 · 13/05/2017 22:29

I agree with everyone else- imagine yourself going out to see family/ going shopping, pack a bag of essentials. You'll feel stronger when you're out and will be able to call women's aid. You'll get all the support that you need and will never have got see him again.

Be strong for your daughter. Best of luck Flowersxx

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