Oh please help. I don't know what to do anymore. I really want to leave but whenever I try it's like I freeze and I just can't explain it and I know that sounds stupid and I have told myself day after day about how stupid it is but it just doesn't change the fact I can't physically do it. I am so worried about everything. I lost my job and have no way of getting any money so I need to stay it's like if I go I will ruin my daughter and if I stay I will. Will the council help? It's so overstretched and I don't want them to put her into care. I need to be able to stop freezing whenever I try to leave but I just can't stop that.
My arms are killing, he has grabbed them really hard tonight and they just ache I have had enough my poor little girl was pushed over and wouldn't stop crying she seems ok now but I don't want her to think that's ok but I tried packing a bag and going but I just froze and couldn't, I went into a panic attack and he came and just held me down pretending he was being nice but he knew it would make my breathing worse, but he made me feel like it was me being an idiot that was making me panic.