I'm in the process of leaving my H. He is abusive and violent, and the last few months while we've been separating have been horrendous, I feel pushed to the edge.
We're moving the week after next. Today H took DCs out so I could pack. He came home in a foul mood and started ranting that I hadn't done enough packing, and accusing me of having been with a man. There is no OM but H has refused to believe this and repeatedly accuses me of an affair. I lost it this evening and shouted at him, and swore. He did too. Some of this was in front of DCs, which I feel awful about. When they went to bed he started again - he had said I could choose which books go to each of us, then came in and said I was taking all the good ones - I had specifically checked about some before deciding. I felt I was losing it again and tried to leave to go for a walk, but couldn't find my keys. He had had them earlier and when I asked for them said he'd had the kids all day so I had to look after them now, and went out. He came in 15 min later and said he had called the police and told them I had thrown a punch at him! Which is a total lie. I'm downstairs and he's upstairs, I'm waiting for police to arrive. It's like living through a nightmare, please help me through this.