And I don't know what to do.
We've been together for two years and have a 4.5 month old DS.
Three weeks ago DP had a breakdown in tesco, crying (he's not a crier) and really struggled ever since. He's seen multiple counsellors and his GP. He can't sleep and has anxiety now. He cries at the drop of a hat. I was doing my best to support him and he swears blind he loves me and wants our little family.
He sent me and DS away three nights ago claiming he needed space.
Background - he's been on antidepressants for 12 years - paroxetine. Six weeks before his breakdown he stopped taking them. He has been cutting down for the last year because he wanted to come off them but knew it would be difficult. He is now on 40mg of paroxetine but we have been told it could take up to six weeks for it to kick back in.
He went to a counsellor on Wednesday after telling us to go on Tuesday and we met him back at the house and he said he wanted more space. So I cooked tea for him and his parents and then left with DS.
We met again yesterday and he says he loves us and wants us but still needs space.
Hes staying at his mums.
I don't know what to do. Our son isn't sleeping in this new house, I'm sick with worry about DP. I don't know whether I should be letting him push us away or refusing to do so and returning home. His mum says, and so does DP and I, that he doesn't know whether he's coming or going or what he wants for breakfast. She says he's latched onto me and the baby being the problem when we aren't and we are bearing the brunt of it.
I just want to take my son back to his home. I want my family back.
What do I do? I feel sick. I feel lost.