Fuck off you stupid prick of a husband, who is now giving me the silent treatment because I dared to go to a final wedding dress fitting with my only sister, for whom I am chief bridesmaid.
For daring to leave you to look after your own children for a few fucking hours after you "had a stressful week!" which included a day playing golf instead of working and finishing each day by 4pm latest and then sitting on your arse on the sofa, watching tv and playing crappy games on your phone, waiting for me to get home from work after picking up three children from various childcare, so you can enquire what I am making you for dinner and moan how it is too late as you want to go to the fucking gym for your 2 hour daily session including sitting in the jacuzzi and sauna.
Fuck off! You've spent most of the last year either shouting at me or ignoring me.
Getting angry if your clothes are not washed or I haven't bought the right food or the house is not clean on my 'days off' which are also spent looking after a two year old!
Fuck off! I don't get a fucking day off, this shit is never ending. I haven't had a full nights sleep in over two years, not that you'd know because while I'm wrestling the toddler you're snoring like a fucking pig!
Yes, I know you earn significantly more than me, which obviously means that your needs far more important than mine. Yes,I know that I'm lucky to have you and there are loads of women lining up to take my place. Yes, I also know that I owe my lovely existence to you and if you leave me I will have nothing.
I know this because you tell me frequently, particularly when I haven't had sex with you as often as you expect. Newsflash, being spoken to like shit is not a turn on, so you might want to try changing your approach.
Do you know what? I don't fucking care about any of it any more, I'm sick of it, the whole fucking thing.
I'd love to tell him all this, but as he is ignoring me and won't listen to anything I say, I can't, so I'm ranting here instead. I normally just get on with things but he's proper pissed me off this time, like a switch has been flicked.
I don't expect any replies, I just needed to get this off my chest. I don't need you to tell me to ltb as clearly I know I should, I just don't have the energy for that battle at the moment.