Dry 15

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For all those sober, or would be sober, warriors. KOKO (keep on keeping on) lovely people :)

Oh god fell off the wagon😁 been reading Bell. Think I'm going to try 2 on 2 off.

What is Bell Getting? I hope you find an approach that works for you. You did 2 days and that's an achievement in itself. 2 days is better than none at all. I'm finding tonight has been fine, I've not missed it. I'd imagine like you there will be days when I find it hard not to give in.

Thank-you lou. Sorry to report I'm in a very dark place at the moment. Searing grief has been joined by intense anxiety about what to do with my frail and now widowed mother. I feel utterly de-stabilised and floating strangely through the days.
I had a slight slip a day ago - had a glass of my brothers red wine - I was just desperate to lift the misery even for a minute. But all it did was intensify the panic that I'm feeling to an unbearable level. I rang DH shaking and hysterical. Sober Mummy has written on her blog about the need to be sober in times of stress and I get that now. I won't be drinking again. There is no alternative but to go through this pain and feel it.
Sorry to be so down .

Sitting with you jojo

Thank-you finnish that is lovely of you.

New day today- hopefully we all make it to the end of it Sober!!!

JoJo I hope you are feeling better today.

Feeling good this morning, heading off to town early to get some shopping with dc2. Dc1 is off to school and this morning felt so good to be fresh headed and not groggy from the wine I would have drank last night

Hugs jojo

Welcome to all the new ladies and gent. Sorry not to nc.
getting if you are planning to try the moderation route perhaps have a look at the Brave Babes which is a moderation whereas this is abstinence.
Hope everyone is ok. How are you getting on. blue

Echo vxa - anyone considering moderating might be better suited to the Brave Babes - they are a helpful bunch! :)

Anyone see One or Matron??

Stay strong Jojo - you can do this XXX

Hurricaneswallows Shes a blogger- fed up about thinking about drinking. thank you.

Vxa2 i'll look at that, think moderation is the way for me right now

Jojo hugs

I've just been in the supermarket to do my weekly shop and I left with no alcohol. Now to get through the evening of day two, both Dcs are going to their fathers overnight

😤 I'm not a happy bunny! Fuming had a row with dp..
Need to realise quick I'm so so mad!

Relax!

Hugs choc. Can you punch a pillow? Shout at dh? Drink some tea and watch comedy? Hang upside down?

I did I swore a bit and stormed upstairs. very ladylike going down to make a brew and get in bed with netflix.

Went down and made myself a big hot chocolate with marshmallows he didn't talk to me just stared at ps4, got my pjs on and got in bed.
I am staying here all night now hope he don't come up. Men are moody pricks at times!

Hi jojo sorry to hear about your pain

Ha "hang upside down" I must try that next time I have a barny

Its times like this when you need to dig deep Choc - so easy to say "right that's it I am stressed I am going to have a drink". I am very impressed you stayed strong well done!

Would also like to "hang upside down" although from where god only knows

Oh thank you all! Not had any contact with him so an a bit anxious about him coming home but il just entertain the dc and have another early night if all else fails.
I'm telling myself not to raise to his moods as that gets me stressed and need to stay strong.
Koko everyone well done. X

Hi can I join please? I've read all the thread and see the support offered and hope I can grab a bit for myself.

Firstly though, jojo - so sorry for your loss. You must be hurting so much but its testament to your strength that you can see that grieving when sober is horrific, grieving when drunk would be many times worse.

Day 3 for me. I've drunk most days for the last 15 years bar pregnancies and the odd bursts. It's a story similar to lots on here, kid stress = wine, dh stress = wine, work stress = wine, menopause stress = wine. But now I need my sleep more than I need my wine and I have to stop as I'm knackered, feel permanently on high alert and have a sort of apathy about life.

I've recently jacked my awful job in and am starting another one in 13 days so I have this period to get a grip and look after myself. TBH though, today on day 3 I feel worse as ever, didn't sleep last knight, feel anxious and miserable. I know it will pass and I don't want a drink, just want this permanent low level of miserableness to go.

Hope everyone else hasn't taken to the bottle at today's news. It's a shocker.

Awks welcome welcome

For some reason I always find day 3 really difficult - I also found that when I tried to quit smoking. I am not saying it is going to be hearts and flowers when you get to day 4 but I definitely felt that things would be a bit easier when I got over day 3.

I'm on day 65 (and a half) and as long as I don't drink today I'll be happy - tomorrow's a new day, and I'll start again no moatter what happens today.