I met someone online when I was just coming out of a really bad place in my life.
I had left a very abusive relationship a few years ago with someone who was lovely at first and then just completely broke me down and the next few relationships I had were disasters. Just with the wrong men who were hot and cold or liars or even if they were nice I just didn't feel any love in return. I was in a bad place emotionally and wasn't taking care of myself. I had put on weight, was avoiding the basics of self care like the dentist or shaving my legs or even keeping my work /home /finances in order. The best way to describe how I was feeling was that I just did not really care about myself or feel a sense of positivity at all towards myself.
Then I met this someone and we never had a relationship but we talked a lot and I think I was avoiding the actual dating part but I did really like him and I know he really liked me too.
The timing was really bad for both of us due to all sorts of things which overshadowed the possibility of a relationship and we sort of missed out moment a bit.
I've noticed that since he came along I started to look after myself. Eating properly, sorting my finances out, working much better and just generally he left such a positive influence on my life and in a way he really helped to heal me because he was such a fantastic person and made me feel really good about who I was and I can't help really missing him and wondering "what if?"
It's now been a couple of months since we saw each other but I was wondering if he felt the same way that he would call me?
I can't help feeling a bit like I let something pass me by, but it was not entirely my fault alone as neither one of us was ready or in the right place to give something proper to a relationship at the time and I think i knew if we started it was going to be for the long haul and so it just ended up not going ahead.
Do men get in touch with women they find hard to forget? I know I am finding him hard to forget and I can't help but feel such a sense of happiness and healing for the impact he had on me and i do still fancy the pants off him and know he feels the same.
I am not sure if I am being a fool though and if he would not have let me get away in the first place if he did feel the same.