Dying in the inside....

[LonelySoutherner]

Dp and I have been together for 3 years, after a whirlwind relationship he finally proposed. Dp the most sweetest person I have been with, compared to my past emotionally and physically abusive relationship.

He has helped me recover from this during this time I was a wreck didn't have much going for me. He has helped me with making my career choices and has been my rock ever since, we rarely argue.

Couple weeks ago on a night out with my friends we had an argument that escalated pretty badly he wanted us to go home but my friends wanted to stay out for a while longer. I got drunk and ended up sleeping with someone, I haven't told my dp this yet and the guilt is tearing me apart he has been questioning me lately where I was that night I told him I was at my friends.

Sorry if this post is long, idk what to do anymore I'm scared that I have messed things up for myself.

He has said in the past if I ever cheated it would be the end, no second chances he wouldn't stick around.

Cabrinha - This was after the break up, I went round his to grab a few stuff I guess I had it coming he only agreed for me to clear my stuff out and leave but I tried reasoning for a second chance I was pushing him till breaking point he really is a sweet person he's never really psychically assaulted me in the past. He's told me I'm not welcomed round his anymore.

I don't think I'll feel comfortable opening up with myself to a total stranger. Right now I feel totally lost with life I have moved out from my parents as they no longer want me there, no support from no one I hate living on my own just feels so strange. OM is happy and his relationship isn't destroyed whereas mine is, he even threatened me not to tell anyone which was a shit move.

He's an arsehole. He's not sweet. You just didn't see it before. Lucky escape for you.

Doesn't matter what you did - the cheating or begging for another chance - there is NEVER EVER EVER a reason to push your partner or ex against a wall.

My XH cheated on me. Turns out, a lot. I managed to dump him without physically assaulting him.

You should not have cheated, but that does not mean he had any right to assault you.

What does 'he's never really psychically assaulted me in the past' mean?

You have him up on a pedestal but it doesn't sound like he deserves to be there, to be honest. I think you need some GOOD counselling to get to the bottom of things.