Just so angry

[Gohackyourself]

Hi,

I'm not really sure where/how to even start with this-

Everything annoys me... From people not replying back to me by text when I asked something- to my parents (just visiting turns into a verbal bun fight of opinions on life per se)
The general public I deal with at work in challenging situations can be really aggressive and it makes me angry.

I'm also dissapointed in people who I thought were friends and family- I split up 2 years ago- it had been v messy in my relationship for a few years and is a relief to split- but I'm on own now and find it all quite challenging at times of working f/t, challenging job, looking after children and home.
I get free time so that's not an issue.

I seem to be angry that everyone's deserted me, moved on, but I go ten steps forward and eleven back.and literally that could just be from a family member failing to show curtesy or thought.
People are missing manners!!

I'm a chipper person most days but I can't help feel that if anyone sat down an actually asked me "are u really ok" id melt into tears and not be able to pinpoint it all-

I'm sorry for this long one- I just want anyone/someone to tell me if they felt this, what it is/could be and how I solve it!! I think a mixture of loneliness/sadness/frustration/

I tried OLD and that is more fustrating than ever due to the b.s that men tell u on there ........
I'm lost

It makes me laugh when I hear people say they're 'independent'. I would say the vast majority wouldn't have a clue. It's crap sometimes with zero family. When there's literally no one to rely on for your emotional or financial stability. I have wobbly days like everyone, but I do hope I'm a good role model for DD. She has ASD, so I worry about her future when I'm not here any more. She'll still have her half brother (exP's new son) I guess!

I think teaching them not to rely on anyone financially or emotionally is a good lesson.
I think/guess we ve all spent longer in unhappy relationships because we didn't think we could do it on our own- but there comes a time when something snaps and you have to sink or swim-
And most swim or bob or just keep head above water but we done it an are doing it.
We re quite strong us females in reality.
Sorry to sound anti men - but I do believe we are stronger in lots of non-physical ways- I don't think men could do it.

My dad bought my brother and I up alone after my mum left but he had lots and lots of support from his mum and sisters- I'm not so sure he could have truly done it on own as many women are doing.

I know my own marriage went on 5 years longer than it did because I worried financially I couldn't do it.ironically I have more money now than I did then because ( the twunt was gambling it away)!!!

On that note ... How do you write something here but it puts a line through the text- I don't know how

Here, here. I was going to add that not many men are capable of doing what a lot of women do. TBH, I'm not really sure of the point of them! I think we all deserve a pat on the back.
I'm sorry to hear your back story OP. But how well you're doing now is a testament to you as an individual as well as a female. There are still plenty of women stuck in very unhappy relationships, just too petrified to leave. That's what I don't want for DD. I need her to be strong and independent regardless of whether she's in a relationship or not; to have the self-belief, courage and stength to realise she can do it if needs be. Unlike her mother who took 7 years to save up enough and earn enough to start over again. (I had no entitlement to the house as I wasn't married and not on the mortgage - stupid, but I didn't know. Now I just live in rented accommodation and wonder what the hell I'll do when I retire! Probably live in a caravan!! )
And I've just found out how you put a line through text.... I'm on a mobile and inbetween the emoticon and paper clip icons is an italic 'I'. Click on that and it gives you text options.

like this ?

Yay!!

Yay - thank you

How are you doing OP?

Hi draughty,

Well I managed to get some "mental respite" at the weekend- so rested, met two friends for dinner an lunch and painted some fence in the garden.i also took the dogs on some long walks.
I booked myself an induction at the gym for Thursday night eeek! Just to force me to get out house instead of sitting eating on my two child free evenings. I hate the gym but I figure it will give me something to do towards being a bit fitter.

Finally I've decided to steer clear of the people (family) that make me mad unless I have to see them.
I'm not texting/calling people anymore to see how they are- bit like the wardrobe thing( if I haven't seen or heard from them in 6 months a year - I'm binning)

And also not being a fallback phone all for my dad to be able to moan at when he feels like it !! I'm not answering the phone anymore at work to him which is when he normally calls because he wants to moan bout stepmum

Phew think that I've got the ball rolling!!!