The Brave Babes Battle Bus - Soaking Up The Warm Sunshine, Instead Of The Warm White Wine!

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Hi, I'm Mouse :)

Welcome to The Brave Babes Battle Bus.

A place for pouring out your heart without being judged, mostly because a lot of us have been exactly where you are right now, or somewhere similar.

We've been around for a while, so there's not much that we've not seen..... or heard.... or been through ourselves.

Some of the Babes are newer to the Bus, some of the Babes have been here on dear old "Gerald" (The name this Bus was given by one of the Babes, I forget who now!I suspect IsinDe or Silver) for a little while longer!

EVERYONE is welcome here. Drinkers, those who are complete non drinkers, and those who are somewhere in the middle of all of the above. :)

Some Babes are in control of their drinking, some not so much. It's dreadfully hard some days, days when there is nothing going around your head except thinking that you MUST have a drink and you sit there trying to work out when, what time you can have that first mouthful of ice cold poison.

Whatever your goal here, or why you're here, we'll all help you along the way, YOUR WAY.

There will be one of us on here that can relate to your life story as if it were a mirror they were looking at, someone to hold your hand if you want it, catch you if you fall, which you may or may not. Positive thinking, just One Day At A Time.

No one Babe is better than any other, we've all been addicts. We've all suffered, yes some more than others but it's not a competition (and no-one gets turned away) but if you rack up shed loads of sober days, you will be a winner on the thread!!

So, if you want somewhere safe to sit and enjoy the warming summer sun, come find a seat, have a chat or just sit and listen to the rest of us yakking on!!

Nice to meet you :) all.

Also, here is the latest thread -

THE LATEST THREAD WE'VE SHARED OUR STORIES AND EXPERIENCES ON

And this is the very first thread -

AND THIS THREAD, THIS THREAD IS EXTREMELY SPECIAL BECAUSE THIS IS WHERE THE JOURNEY STARTED, AND HAS SINCE EVOLVED OVER THE LAST SIX YEARS

Hope to chat soon, Mousey x

Room for another one in the Shed of Shame?! I feel virtous if I managed to pick up the dogs poos, let alone do any gardening...

faire I doubt DH was hungover, as he was driving and he doesn't really drink. He's one of those weird people who can have a drink and just stop at one - hard to believe isn't it.

Hi babes, I'm back with you all, had reached crisis point but finally have some real support and hoping the worst is over. You've no idea how reassuring it is to see your all here, just like before, my world has been so extreme it feels so safe to be back among old and precious friends. Xxx

Baby so lovely to see you, so sorry you have been through such horridness. We've missed you, we are delighted to see you and we are here for you.

Silly question, but how are you feeling?

sweet- haha . The hardcore Chinese massage isn't anything sketchy ... There is this "mom and pop shop" near me (East coast city, U.S.) run by a Chinese couple. They are both very athletic and basically have these ways of leaning in so that they get to really deep spots. Fully clothed all round! It definitely sets off endorphins and was a good choice for my jangly self. I am now on day 8 and still not feeling great . Bit of a sore throat, all over body ache and exhaustion. Genuinely can't tell if the start of a virus or withdrawal. Could be either. Wish we weren't moving in 12 days ... Need to pack- ugh. At least the weather is stunning and it's a 3 day weekend here. Chugging back the fizzy water, shopping online for a couple of books and a new sports bra. Not feeling like drinking, but still not feeling great. Let's hope it passes soon. Happy Sunday .

baby good to see you my friend. You are a valued member of this bus so hang in there.
Anyone seen indie or that started wry?

Dratted, not started!

Gosh if forgotten how much of a depressant alcohol is. Felt great last Thursday - now feel tearful guilty and like a crap grumpy mum back to growling at the kids. Have had a beer and a glass of wine from the end of a bottle and struggling not to open another bottle.

Try to eat something filling, popstar.

I'm in London for a week and tonight I didn't know what to do with myself this evening. I went for a long walk and kept thinking I wished I could go into a pub but I don't want to drink soft drinks as I don't want the sugar or the artificial sweeteners. But my hotel bar makes swanky cocktails so I had soda with mint and cucumber slices and it was awesome. Very tasty and refreshing and I didn't miss the alcohol.

Just found out my dad has been taken into hospital up north so having that wine after all. Wish had swanky cocktail maker here! Right, tomorrow is Monday - no excuses. I decree that it will be day 1.

Hi all. I think it's time to get on the bus if there's room for one more last night brought home to me that my drinking has got out of hand. I'm not drinking every day (sometimes a week goes by) but when I do I can't stop at one. Last night I scratched and bit my closest friends and DP and slapped them in the face while they tried to take care of me. I don't remember a thing. I tried to start fights, I don't know how I got home and I started taking my clothes off in front of people.

This is not a good time. This isn't fun. Today I've felt scared and weird all day. I'm lucky that the people I was horrible to still want to know me.

So tomorrow is day one.

Glamour - you poor thing. You've come to a good safe place. Let's do day one together tomorrow. Don't be too hard on yourself we have all been there.

Thank you popstar I hope your dad is feeling better soon. It's difficult not to be hard on myself because I was so abusive and horrible to people I love I'm not a violent or aggressive person at all. Day one together tomorrow. Onwards and upwards I hope.

Glamour, big big big hugs. We are here and we understand how you are feeling. I'm sure your family and friends love you and want to support you. Please try to be kind to yourself and just take one day at a time.

Wise words snow. Glamour your DP and friends will forgive you because they know it's not you but the drink. However , its good to use this as a motivator. I remember trying to kiss / grope my DP'd friend in a pub once right in front of DP and a bunch of mates. I was blotto and couldn't remember a thing but was mortified the next day and felt that I had a lot of trust to win back. I know how low you just feel but honestly tomorrow is another day.

Evening, tis me, Mouse

Just popping in to say I'll do the new thread tomorrow Babes and that there are some lovely posters riding the Bus right now. :)

It's nice to meet you all.

Mouse xxx

Morning all, and welcome Glamour - Day 1 for me was Tuesday just gone. The physical side of things has been enlightening. Day 2 I had an odd furry tongue thing going on, I was very tired from day 2 through 4 ish. I've been thirsty (and still am).
I've had a few thoughts which could have turned into drinking, but I've physically avoided places which could have buggered up my plans. It will be interesting to see how this week goes, hopefully I can train my local pub up in the art of making nice AF drinks. Now that my taste buds have adjusted a bit, AF beers aren't too bad, some are definitely better than others - the ones that are better seem to be the ones which are quite sweet with flavours put in to detract from the odd chemically twang you get from removing the alcohol.

Goose - that AF cocktail sounds lovely - I may have to see if I can pick up a pot of fresh mint & a cucumber on the way home & see what I can whizz up....

Yesterday evening was spent trawling the internet (mostly MN) to work out how to ease our poor little old cat's dementia - she gets so muddled at night, and needs constant reassurance - we're getting to the point of having to decide when's the right time to call it a day .

Popstar - Spangly day 1 good morning to you! I hope your dad has had a good night.

Right, time for a(nother) cuppa :)

I have also discovered that I quite like tea with only milk. Now I have two options for when a friend wants to meet up or I want an excuse to sit down and people watch.

Morning.

Back from our fishing trip. A lovely day out on the water, but the fishing was slow, still, came back with plaice and some orange fish I am assured is good eating - I won't be trying it.

Baby good to see you back, come and have some {t'interbosies}.

Don't have time to name check this morning, but have a good day all.

Welcome glamour. God knows we could do with some glamour on this bus of down and outs....
Waiting for train to London and some precious hours to myself.
Have a good day all!

Ma - enjoy your London time ! Glamour - day one for us. I'm off to work but will be cooking a healthy delicious supper to make the most of an AF day. Sweet - would love a piece of that plaice! Until then all round and love to you all.

Hi all. Thanks for the lovely welcome.

Not feeling too glamorous today- day one has brought paranoia and the burning diarrhea of hell so I'm not at work today. I've got a doctors appointment instead because my mental health is obviously in a worse state than I was prepared to admit before but on the bright side at least I recognise that. I feel guilty having time off (I've only been at this job 5 months and I really need it) but I don't feel up to seeing anyone today.

I really hope this passes soon, and that you're all feeling better today than I am

Well done glamour for being so self aware. Alcohol is a terrible depressant and a massive binge will def leave you feeling paranoid and very low. This will get better over time and you are being brilliant in allowing yourself to get the help you need. try to concentrate on taking positive steps forward and not feeling on horrible memories of drunk behaviour. And try and eat / sleep / look after your body as Welles your mind. The upside of a crisis is that it presents you with a beautiful opportunity. Take it.

Sorry for typos am posting from phone at desk!

Oh god, now I have spoken to work and they are talking about not taking me on at the end of my probation period next month. I am in such a panic as I need this job so much. I feel sick.

And breathe. You need to get to your docs appointment and sort that out first. If nec you can always try honesty about your position with work. One thing at a time , difficult as it is. Are you home alone? Can you call anyone for a chat?