Cantputacockinavaseandcallitaflower ·
02/05/2015 23:46
I'm sorry, I'll try to keep this brief. I have been in a relationship for seven months and it's all gone badly wrong. He is a drug user, I didn't know this until recently. I seem to have lost all sense of reality.
I am a "head up and shake it off" kind of woman. Or at least I was. I guess I got sucked in and now I can't tell if this behaviour is unreasonable or not.
He has always been moody and bad tempered, I suppose I got used to it. However, I had to end the relationship and he bombarded me with calls and texts. Ranging from begging me/he can't live without me to hating me and he's depressed and I've ruined his life. Yesterday, I was asleep and therefore couldn't reply to his texts, so he came down to my home. My child was inside with his grandfather so I got into the car with him to avoid a scene in the street. He drove us off, on two wheels - and crashed us into three cars, after telling me that he didn't care if he killed us. He got arrested for the driving and the police woman rang me to say he'd been bailed with the strict instruction not to contact me.
He has text me, called me - I blocked his number. He emailed me, I blocked his email. He made up a new email account - I had to block it.
Over the months he has been devoted, affectionate, needy even..jealous, possessive - I just couldn't see the red flags at the time.
I am a wreck. Why do I feel guilty? He wants to meet up to say goodbye. I'm not going to do this, but why do I feel like this is such a loss, when the rational side of me knows I've had a lucky escape?