I would like some advice please on what to do about my current situation. I have been with my partner for 5 years and from the offset we have had a rocky relationship, he has a very short temper and flys off the handle at any given thing. In the past when he has lost his temper he has: smashed things, raised his fists to me , broke my stuff, threatened to kick my head in , calls me names, locked my in a bedroom for hours. He is rarely sorry for his behaviour and the aftermath can be a nightmare as he blames me for making him loose his temper, I said this, I looked at him a funny way etc. I have 3 boys from my previous marriage and we also argue about parenting them, in the past he has been aggressive to the children and he feels I am too soft. On the flip side I wont say I am perfect , we had a difficult year last year and i miscarried triplets (the day before my hospital appointment for pre op for operation btw which was also my birthday he left me for 4 days over an argument over money) then his mother died and I started to feel i wasnt coping, I was asking him for help in the evenings just maybe washing the dishes this turned into an almighty issue with him smashing stuff and being angry and the arguements went on all year. There has been 2 occasions I have had to call the police. We decided to move house and I got help with my feelings of depression and anxiety, I had counselling and have been prescribed citrolopram , the day we moved into our new house in november we had a disagrement over water coming from the bathroom, he said its the kids splashing too much I said i thought it was a different problem (i turned out to be correct ) he flew of the handle at this disagrement shouting swearing and left me again for 4 days to deal with everything in the new house. We dealt with this and recently I have been very happy I have been trying to make new friends deal with my issues, then valentines day he flipped again and ruined my evening because I made a comment about his family then on friday i was trying to be frivalous with him asking him to take his top off he quickly got angry and I realised the situation had turned sour and I told him not to worry it doesnt matter, I went the toilet came back down and he was shouting and swearing , i ignored him and went to bed he came into the bed ranting on , next day i went to work and he was sending me nasty text messages , which i ignored , sunday it was mothers day and my little one had agreed with him to make me breakfast in bed but he disappeared off out for most of the day, with my little one asking where he was so he could make my breakfast. Then i just flipped i walked out the house and went to the pub and got really drunk , i shouldnt drink alcohol in great amounts on the tablets as i get massive blackouts, I had an argument with a girl in the pub and woke up with a very bruised hand, I cant remember most of the night but i am guessing i done something really bad i can get aggressive when i have a lot to drink and i feel really anxious and ashamed for the things i mite have done, he wont talk to me and i dont want to approach him as i dont want him kicking off, i tried to phone him but he wouldnt answer, yesterday morning he smashed my lamp and picture and this morning he was walking round the house calling me a bitch, the children were asleep so i dont think they heard, i dont know if i should tell him to leave or try to talk to him , i feel every time i try to get peace in my life he ruins it and i know my behaviour on sunday was disgraceful i just dont know what to do struggling to cope