Sorry to use that analogy but that's how I feel. Been with my dp over 10 years , 2 DCs who are not his but he loves dearly.
When we met I knew he was a drinker ( drank at home every night) which caused so many problems culminating in him having to resign from his well paid career as he had sent inappropriate text messages to a female colleague while drunk. Despite being mortified and embarrassed (me) we worked through it, he cut down on the drinking but over the next few years it gradually built up again.
Just before Xmas I said things needed to change and he reluctantly agreed a compromise of only drinking 3 nights a week. However last night he said he was sick of being told what to do and was going to have a drink. I said he would need to sleep in the spare room as our relationship was on the edge.
I was nearly sick with shock when he came through this morning, told me he had been having a relationship with a woman 11 years younger than him, he was in love with her yet he had an epiphany through the night and decided it was me he wanted . She was waiting to come and pick him up ( lives at the other side of the country).I made him text her to tell her it was over and straightaway she rang me on the landline to tell me things about their relationship which he had already told me anyway.
I feel absolutely devastated, shaking and no energy .
I don't know where to turn and what to do.