The Brave Babes Battle Bus - The Wheels On This Bus Go Around And Around, In Search Of Sobriety.

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Hello, I'm Mouse

This is the brave babes bus, Gerald. He travels far and wide, to wherever he's needed to offer non judgemental support, advice and Opal Fruits!!

We can tell you about the kind of places that can help, your GP can be the first and easiest place to start, or you can look up you local community addiction centre, or even just come onto the thread and let it all out.

There are posters here who have been on the Bus from the start and those who have just joined us

It doesn't matter how long you've been here, the fact that you have taken that first amazing step in acknowledging that maybe, just maybe, things aren't quite right with your drinking is truly MASSIVE!!

This is a safe place for you to just be and to be as honest as you like, or just to talk.

We'll listen

And if you'd like to see our last thread, you can JUST HERE

Plus if you'd like to see where these threads all began, you can read all about that YOU CAN READ THIS VERY EMOTIONAL AND MOVING THREAD

See you soon,

Mouse xxx

Very dark here in Ireland!

Morning babes

Hello, darling Babes!

I was not in the side car last night. Did an hour of advanced yoga and was so exhausted after that that I couldn't even eat!
So I went to bed.

Couldn't see anything of the eclipse here. Very cloudy.

So, Friday night. One of the neighbours coming over. A lovely shy young woman. Am going to make a bite to eat and maybe have a glass of wine. Don't know yet. I made the mistake of eating meat on Sunday and I felt ill until Wednesday!
I LOVE meat but am an almost vegetarian and last time I thought of eating meat the thought of it alone made me feel sick. But this time I was really looking forward to a juicy steak. Oh god, there's that feeling again.

For god's sake, can it be that my body is rejecting meat?

Hi Khalisi, tried my hand at being a veggie a month or so ago, was doing good and then fell by the wayside. I am a very plain (substitute lazy) cook so if you have any simple recipes you want to share I will be your friend forever .
I was AF free last night as well, went for a walk after my dinner, home and to bed ... waves to all babes.

Hey obrigada, babes.
I could. What really helped me many, many years ago was getting my first vegetarian cookbook.
I thought I would feel lost but I didn't, to be honest.
I still do eat meat and fish but it is so rare. And I think being a farm girl, meat was always there.
But I really felt god awful for three days (didn't even THINK of alcohol!).

Have to do some Shopping and start cooking.

Have a good evening, Babes.

'See' you all tomorrow!

xxx

Hello Lovely Ladies, I have been lurking about for the last couple of days, and I am so inspired by your stories.
Mine is very similar situation to many of yours. I've relied on alcohol for at least 15 years, and it's basically destroying my life and my family. It's now at the point my youngest daughter is now staying with her father, and doesn't want to come home. Luckily, my xp is being quite supportive, whereas he would be quite within his rights to tell me to get to fuck.
I haven't had a drink for 2 days, but I know the weekend will be a battle. I've suffered from depression and GAD for many years, with a tentative diagnosis of bipolar disorder.
My marriage broke up 3 years ago, from my dc's, dsd, after he had an online fling. He's now married to the woman. I've had a shit time of it since childhood, but I need clarity in my life.
As another lady said, 40+ years I've had on this planet and hopefully I have many more years left. I'm not going to achieve very much if I carry on drinking, I still have dreams, hopes and aspirations that need fulfilled.
Sorry for the ramble, but I needed to start somewhere.

welcome mojo on making that brave first post. 2 days is excellent by the way so well done on that too.
I'm just popping in as am in work but the rest of the loonies will be along at some point
Stay strong Babe - we all know what its like!

welcome mojo and don't mind the madness. You will get lots of support and advice here.

ma - how was last night?

I haven't been able to get in touch with wry at all I really miss her but maybe she fell off the Bus completely. I do hope she's okay

Welcome to the bus Mojo .

How was your night Ma?

Joey have you tried sending Wry a pm? Really hope she is ok, I absolutely loved reading her posts.

Ma, Joey and obrigada thank you all for the lovely welcome! I'm sure I will gain a lot of insight from you Babes.
It's difficult for everyone, the journey of life, and I know that for me alcohol added into the mix, causes endless problems.
I have a good friend visiting this weekend who is joining me in a weekend of sobriety. Which is a big change for us both, usually the ww and devil gin are with us for company!
Hope you all have a peaceful evening Babes

We all miss wry. Wish she would come back.
The night was wonderful! It all went to plan and have had lots of feedback from guests. It was, for several reasons, a very special night.

Another shitty Friday night here. DD and WB had a major row cos neither of them would give way over what to watch on TV. Then both of them blamed me for not intervening to take their side. And WB called me a slob for sitting looking at my phone while they argued, saying I was always sitting on my arse doing nothing. I have not sat in the living room all week, was at DS sports club two nights this week and in London the other two. Meanwhile DS sat upstairs on the XBox and now we are all in different rooms ignoring each other. I only got in from another shitty week at work at 7.00pm and I had bought everyone little presents of chocolates and stuff before cooking and eating my own dinner cos they had all finished theirs and nobody made me anything. No wonder I fucking drink. Hope you all have better evenings. (this is me self-pitying. I wish WB would drop down dead sometimes, he is more childish than my 11 year old).

Oh hope I can relate to this so much. What a horrible evening for you. I too have often wished wb dead. Unfortunately he never obliges. I have no answers other than you are not alone in living this kind of life. Can you get some time to yourself tomorrow?

Aw cheers Ma. No, tomorrow I have dd's gymnastics, then food shopping etc. Sunday have small nephew's birthday party (not my side of the family but I have bought the presents, and the card, and arranged everything) then ds has an important race, then washing and ironing school uniforms. WB not even going to own nephew's party cos it is 'full of noisy kids' and he is 'past that stage'. Twunt. I swear his own niece and nephew (great niece and nephew to be clear) will walk past him in the street when they are teenagers and not even know him. The miserable old git.

Anyway, I am being a selfish arse myself and not asking exactly why your night was so wonderful. Although I think (hope) I can guess . Was Midget Obama there by any chance? (I know he was ) Enjoy whatever moments you can grab, I say. I hope you run off with him one day to a paradise island!!!

Just popping in to say hi and happy Saturday. ma I am so pleased you had a special (and intriguing!) time on your night out.

Also missing Wry. And I may have missed her but has Sweet been around this week? I've enjoyed counting the days with you, lovely, and day 80 is dawning!

Hope everyone is doing ok today. You sound like you have busy weekends. DP has sweetly taken the kids away to give me a break (not sure of the logic here since he is the one who looks after them all week) and I already miss them so much it hurts.

Morning babes,

Hi mojo, a huge warm welcome to the bus. I know we all seem a but zany but the truth is we all have drink related issues and have been where you are now. I took a nervous breakdown after having dd2 at 40, I sought solice in booze, lots of it. I would binge for days on end scaring my girls, my dp and my parents but most of all myself. I was an angry, bitter mess. I nearly lost it all and I'm defiinately in last chance saloon. I'm 6 weeks sober and focussing on losing weight, doing lots of excercise and having many many baths in the evening. I just want you to know you have to fall down lower than you've ever been to stand up taller than you ever have!!! When your family see the positive and brave steps you are taking to help yourself I'm sure they will support and forgive you. As bad as it seems now, a week AF can change everything, you will feel so much better. My relief at being "normal" is overwhelming, just going about the normal family stuff is a pleasure, my teenage dd is loving and carefree again and even though dd2 is having a tantrum phase I can cope, no more hidden bottles, no more shame. This bus was the reason I made it this far and we look forward to being here for you lovely, brave lady.

Right I'll be back soon, off to gymnastics with dd2 and will NC my lovely bus sisters later xxxx

Yes hi Mojo How are you feeling today? Are you having another AF day? Hope you find time to do something nice for yourself like a walk or a bubble bath or favourite DVD xxxx . These are for you . Just about to mobilise grumpy hormonal dd for gymnastics. Whole family in my bad books today . Not that they are as long as I am banker, taxi, cleaner and chef! Grrrrrrr

Thanks hope. I hope you have a better day today.

Hi Mojo good to meet you and hope you have a lovely time with your friend.

Hi all. I was wondering where Sweet was too. Hope she's ok.

I was in the sidecar last night

ma what do you mean "a special night"?! Stop being cagey and spill the beans (I'm living vicariously through your midget sailor, hopefully he's a good 'un, unlike mine)

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Welcome Mojo!!!
Hope your AF weekend is going ok. It does help to have friends join an AF efforts.

SWEEEET!!!!! Put Puppy down and come on the bus!!! Hell, bring him and Puss along if you must. Just come on, pretty please?!

ma Spill. The. Beans. PRONTO!!!

Well, a rather interesting day over here. Other Builder just showed up without announcement. Left me flustered but I stayed strong. Cannot believe he actually came in the hope of changing my mind. So what if he can't forget me? He's married, FFS!!!
ARGHHHHH!!!

But, am having a rather nice evening in the side car. Not over doing it. First glass. Going to stuff myself with cake soon and that will take care of the alcohol.

I couldn't possibly. So unladylike to kiss and tell....

ma you KISSED?!

Anyway, who says you're a lady?

joey am I being metaphorical or literal....hmmm, I wonder?

Did HE say you were a lady? (and how would he know, hmm?)