Good morning babes,
ma once again I'm sorry that life has been so harsh to you of late. Regarding your Dad, it's very important that you don't commit to dealing with his care, it may seem cruel to relinquish responsibility but when he is a suitable care home and has the stimulation of other residents and trained staff there is every chance his situation will prove. I think you are dealing with a crushing amount of bad luck with great class and patience. Stay strong babe, we luv ya xxx
inside my lovely lovely lady, you should have been swathed with love and support yesterday, id liked to believe you dp was playing down the day rather than being thoughtless. I always sense you carry too many burdens in your relationship and I hope that's not out of place for me to say but you are very very dear to me and I will always "have your back", if virtual love counts you are surrounded by it.
mouse you have an astonishing way with words, a true gift, it is difficult to translate emotion into the written word but you do it with warmth, wit and abundant compassion. When I am gone I hope my daughter copes with life and loss with the class and acceptance that you have. You are a legend and we adore you.
looking you must be in a very strange bubble at the moment, how you cope with an appraisal and redundancy in the same breath is insensitive and confusing. Change is very scary but as I've said, you are clearly fabulous and this will be reflected in your future career, of that I'm sure.
sweet I hope your household is getting better and that you are feeling a wee bit better too, all the nasty bugs are over in one go and happy healthy days lie ahead!!! Xxx
I have had a bad news, good news weekend. My manic high where I run about like a loony running from the low mood that follows has indeed ended leaving me by Friday night on a terrible low. I had to drag myself to dd2's activities on sat morning after puking with anxiety and I spent the day in a terrible, tearful mood, went to bed at 9pm. Sunday was worse, I got up with dd2 but went back to bed later and remember thinking I couldn't have got up if the house was in fire, I was numb with emptiness, I was rude to my dh and kids and wanted to run away. This was the day I would've drank, I've known this feeling so many times and wine fills the hole of hell inside me and triggers the binge that knocks me out for days. BUT I didn't, I have no lives left and I had to charge through the wall that falls on me every 7 or so weeks and I did. Forced myself up and to the supermarket, bought lots of healthy foods and kept thinking of all of you pushing me out of the wine aisle pathway and I made it through. I'm still low but I am going to body attack this morning and will chase those pesky blues away. I hate the erratic nature of my mood but I must learn to embrace the highs and survive the lows and be grateful for all the great things in my life and that means ALL OF YOU.
A small victory but a victory nonetheless.
Love and hugs to every babe, everywhere. wry i'm near Glasgow and have access to horses I will ride up there if I have to singing Abba very loudly, show yourself or I'll see you and you'll hear me very soon xxx