After a 12 year marriage break up and divorce, I though life had turned a corner and that I had met my soul mate. I was incredibly happy, the man I met was amazing, brilliant, had an incredible well respected job, funny, thoughtful and my best friend. We had just got engaged and were planning on making our families one. Imagine my shock when one day on looking on his laptop for film times I discovered he has been leading a double life, my shy,humble man was on various sex hook up sites, also sites to use escorts on which the escorts had rated him as a client, the list and shock goes on! He denied it at first blaming a relative but the truth finally all came out. I am devastated, it's in my thoughts constantly and I am also dreaming about it. I am a very attractive, well educated woman but here he is sleeping with dirty escorts, some much younger. He tells me he has a porn addiction and begs me to help him, promising to see a counsellor as its been going on for years. I am confused beyond belief, I know nothing of this other side other than what I found and read. I feel repulsed and don't know what to do, I screamed, shouted cried but that changes nothing and now I feel like a nag. My self esteem is so low as I feel he wants much younger women, he tells me I am wrong and that its is his problem. I confided in some close friends and now they want nothing to do with me as they say I should have dumped him, I can't believe this has happened to me ......