I had a thread running as I escaped my exp last December. exp wouldn't let me bf the baby
Just an update.
I'm still in a refuge. Its the second one as he found me in the first one. Now i wont be found again as he died. He died a few days ago.
He made my life hell for a year by dragging me through courts for residency, making malicious reports to ss.
Now he's gone. I'm free but don't want to be. I want to go back and I miss him, I just wish I never spoke out. I have taken DDS away from their daddy for good, he couldn't live with it
I got stronger then him doing the freedom programme. Then he ended our past. There is no future for us.
I'm a hypocrite I've never had a nice word to say about him for a year, I've slagges himb off totally. Now he's gone I can't stop crying and missing him.
DDS don't know yet. As he only saw them weekly then I got it cut to fortnightly at court I've just told dd1 I got the weeks mixed up.
When he was so low and down I was happy I got residency and was joking and laughing, he was ending his life. I thought it was a sick joke but now more people are texting saying sorry its not. Its real. DDs never going to see their dad again. Dd1 only talks about bad times but there was good times. Dd2 never going to remember her daddy. Dd2 never got to spend a birthday or Xmas with her dad I took that away from her.
He will never see the smile that I get when she wakes up, hell never hear her speak properly.
He will never get to see dd1 in a school play or hear her sing or see her dance.
I took all of that away from them. Now I'm going to have 2 grieving children all because I took them away.
So this is it. Im free but i don't want to be free this way. I want to still hate him.
A year ago he said he would kill himself. I told him to go ahead. Now he has.
My poor babies now got no dad. Why didn't I just talk to him at court. He looked at me as he walked out of the court room and I looked down a few hours later he was dead
I just want to turn the clocks back. He's gone never to bother me again.