Hi guys,
So after this time last week my partner telling me he's trying his hardest to make it work and loves me and wants us to stay together, the next day he breaks up with me and I've pretty much been a wreck ever since.
By the Saturday he'd decided he's fed up of trying with me and doesn't love me like he used to, and that our date we had planned for the Saturday night to try and reconnect he doesn't want to go on. Now, we've had a lot of break ups and make ups after a week in our short stormy relationship...all of the bad things have happened since we moved in but this time it doesn't feel the best at all.
I should mention at this point a couple of weeks ago his father had a mini stroke and now they've discovered a brain tumour which the family find out the severity of next Tuesday. The whole time his father was taken to hospital I took time off work, was at the hospital all weekend and doing the general stuff a girlfriend should do, so I'm not quite sure if his fathers illness is behind this like my friends seem to think.
Anyway, since Sunday he has refused to move out just yet, stating he wants to but in a couple of weeks when he decides he wants to. I pleaded with him to just go to his parents (where he's moving back to) for a few days, they live five minutes away and mine are 20 miles and again he refused. He won't not sleep in our bed, it's him that doesn't want to be together and him that should move to the sofa yet he won't. There's no physical contact other than this morning (which I'll explain next), and he spends his time flipping between completely ignoring me to talking very sweetly, realising what he's doing and then stopping quickly.
Then comes my problem, I've sick since this time last Friday. I have a raging hunger yet whenever I take a bite of food I'm straight to the toilet trying to throw it up. Since last Friday (so unfortunately I can't even say it started when the break up did), I've hate probably around six bites of food, all I can drink is water and again it comes straight back up. On the toilet first thing every morning throwing up and the other one. No concentration, I can sleep but then wake up and it starts all over again. Yesterday evening, he'd made a pizza for his dinner, I asked for a tiny part and he refused! This morning I've woke up and it's even worse even he can see that, I tried to cuddle into him in the corridor and he gave a half hearted cuddle back, then got me a dish to be sick in and a glass of water without me even prompting which is a first! However I've been wretching for the best part of an hour now inbetween typing so called NHS 111. They're asking the urgent care centre to call me, I can't tell him as he'll accuse me of attention seeking or something so I literally am on my own, having to stay off work, sick in bed and without him.
With this and him being like this with me I'm absolutely devestated, it's my little sisters wedding in a few weeks and I can't even think about not going with him. Sorry for the long post and to be honest I'm not really asking anything, more just trying to gather my thoughts and write it down.