We are supposed to be getting married in June next year but he never brings it up, never mentions it and never talks about it if I bring it up. He's said we'll "discuss and book in october" and now he tells me he's going away in October. All I said to him was "can you reassure me that we will still organise and book our wedding in october in spite of you going away?" and he went off on a massive huff being sarcastic saying "no, I will never discuss marriage with you because I'm an awful, horrible person!" and he's now saying he's reconisdering marrying me at all because of "my behaviour". I feel he's just playing with my insecurities, he knows I'm paranoid that he doesn't really want to get married and he's actually playing with it,
I'm heartbroken. All I wanted was reassurance that he wouldn't use work as an excuse not to organise our wedding (past experiences - he won't concentrate on anything if something else is looming first).
He won't give me the reassurance, he just rips the piss out of me, does impressions of me and hurts me. I don't understand why. Im sat here with tears rolling down my face. I give up, I really do.