DRY 5

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Starting this before the old one gets filled up!
this is the thread for the alcohol free.
Join us!

Try to focus on how much you are healing now. Your body will recover. It 's a vile feeling I know, but you can do it.

Can you get out for a quick walk round the block??

Ugh it is such a horrible feeling. I actually feel safer in the house for some reason, was out earlier and keep feeling panicked and dizzy. Have no choice in the matter however as I have to head out for the school run shortly then shopping for ds's birthday present. Will try to think calm, healing thoughts and guzzle on water.

Hi everyone. Am back after ages away from the thread (NC from Merse). Welcome Broken. You are in the right place and your body and mind will calm down given a bit of time. Just put one foot in front of the other until then. If you kicked booze for 6 months you know you can and how much better you'll feel. Good to have you here - and sorry I've been out of touch.

Will try to catch up with the last month of thread. Anyway - sober waves to all you lovely people.

Hello eggshells and welcome back. Don't forget so much of this 'down' feeling will be the alcohol blues. I know how shit those hangovers feel but you're going to feel SO much better tomorrow.

I'm going to need some support this weekend girls. Just got past 90 days sober, feeling pretty calm about it all - but have been invited out for dinner tomorrow evening by a good friend; it's round at his and he and I used to be fellow party animals. To be fair, I have since realised (and always knew deep down) that he was tempered by sensibility, whereas I was tempered by... very little. I'm going to drive over, but I am going to need to stay really strong and be unafraid to leave early-ish if need be. It's the kind of evening that in the past would have led onto possible recreational drugs and a very very late night. I'm also half way through a juice fast, but really don't want to be such a bloody loser that I don't accept this all too rare social invite on that basis alone. So the plan is to eat moderately, take my own alcohol free drink, and drive. Arrggh - so nervous!

Woohoo Biggles you rock! You must be so much healthier than you were a year ago!
Hi broken and also welcome back - its been a bit quiet the last couple of weeks so nice to have you here! Broken hopefully the memory of how you're feeling now will get you through the next week, while you readjust back to a healthy lifestyle. Just remember a drink wouldn't really take the anxiety away, it would just postpone it (and then it comes back with interest!)
Hope you all have some lovely weekend activities planned?

Biggles sorry I missed your post. It has inspired me! Congrats on getting through all those stresses this past year. You're right, it does feel a bit like being reborn... X

Good luck teapot. Just remember the film to the end and how great you are doing. Let us know .

Wow Biggies - that is one hell of a list of achievements. You must be hugely proud of yourself; must be great to be running again properly after the boredom of the injury dragging on. And keeping trudging on despite all the emotionally tough stuff with your mother too. Massive well done.

Teapot, I will be thinking of you tomorrow night. I know exactly the sort of evening you mean and it is hard anticipating it and wondering how it will feel not fully participating and going down 'that road'. But I guess if you are doing a juice fast (blimey - SO impressed by anyone with that sort of discipline) then at least that gives you a convenient temporary excuse on the booze front .Maybe you can say that you will relax on the food front a bit for the night but really can't do alcohol. Doesn't sort out the long-term explanation but shld get you through one night. And I agree - plan to leave early and then you can always stay if it's better than you think.

Broken - wondering how you are and how you coped with the afternoon, school run etc. Try to picture your body cleansing itself. You will feel a million times better in the morning when you've had a full dose of sober kip.

My news in brief is that I have a v. anxious DS who is in Y6 at school so it's all about where he will go for secondary. To be honest he is just generally a worrier - I don't think it's the schools thing as much as fear of ISIS, cancer, that sort of big stuff. Poor mite. I find it heartbreaking to see him suffer so much, he really feels things intensively - just the way he is. But at least I am present for him these days and can try to offer some comfort - or at least an ear - when he wants to talk in the evenings. Would have been utterly pissed and good for nothing by 9 in the old days.

Thank you for the welcomes you lovely bunch of mners you

Best of luck for tomorrow Teapot those sort of weekends were how I lived most of my 20s. Good to have an escape plan but hopefully youll enjoy yourself that much you won't need it.

Bless your ds also he sounds like a sensitive wee soul. It's the age they are becoming more aware the world can be a big and scary place at times I suppose. How lovely that he is able to talk to you about it rather than bottle it up.

Yes I managed to hold it together and get everything done. Concentrating on others things helped although I was a bit snappy and impatient with the kids. Made it up to them with hot chocolate later so think I'm forgiven. Exhausted now after the stresses of the morning and my teeth and jaw are killing me from grinding them. Presently snuggled up in bed with littliest sleeping beside me, listening to her breathing. Lovely sound.

Afternoon all sorry for not being about - dropped off the MN alert system so just thought you were all being quiet and thought I'd come check and there's been loads of activity - bugger. Anyhoo, Biggles 3 days missus!! Will be back when I've caught up with the thread .....

Biggles tomorrow! - it's tomorrow, even bigger

Day 13 :)

OK up to speed again. Welcome from me eggshells :) Teapot will be thinking of you tonight and hoping it goes well. Waves to also, 99 and anyone else I've missed. Nothing to report here. It's my 2nd sober bday tomorrow so I'll be having cake Biggles and thinking of you and your amazing achievement

Hello and congrats on 13 days too 70 :)

Just to clarify that's not a sober-versary but my second birthday where I won't be drowning myself in booze!

Well theoretically it is the 28th but it's the Sunday I had my last drink last year so I thought I'd do it that way!!!

That's amazing Biggles - well done !!!! :)

Congrats for today Biggles. I think it's an amazing achievement, especially after going through so much the last year. Hope you'll be having lots of to celebrate later!

Hope things went well last night Teapot

Still here. I had a huge panic attack last night and have been headachy and in a shitty mood but clinging on as I know it'll get easier. My running has fallen by the wayside lately, going to try and get back to it this week as I know it helps me a lot with anxiety and stress. DM looked after dd for a hour yesterday, who has hit the terrible twos with a bang, and greeted me with 'is it any wonder you drink' with a glass of wine in her own hand as she had been a tearaway the time I was away. Funny how being a mother is the perfect excuse to unwind with a bottle each night.

Was sitting thinking last night about how it's aways said to play the film to the end to the night. I thought about playing the film to the end of my life and how alcohol could eventually kill me through liver problems, health problems or a fall or something. Leaving my two DC alone without a mother and how many regrets I would have putting alcohol above them. Morbid but a real possibility if I keep going down that road. Just kept thinking it's so not worth it. My kids are everything to me and they deserve better.

On that cheery note hope everyone enjoyed the extra hour in bed and happy birthday Lucy, have a great day!

hi Broken thinking and googling liver disease is what has lev to my decision to stay dry. Day 14 now - had some hard days (esp this week). But feel stronger today - good luck - you have done it before so can do it again :)

Congrats to Biggles and Lucy

Woohoo Biggles Congrats on 1 year !! Amazing stuff and look forward to us celebrating in person soon :)

Morning broken hope you're feeling better today, with a bit of luck the worst of the panics should be over now. Yes good point about where life could end up - I feel terrible if I'm ever not there for DS when he needs me, so why would I risk him not having me at all?
Happy Birthday Lucy, I wondered where you'd got to! Have a lovely cake-filled day

Thank you woken up with a stinky cold but at least it's not a hangover I must get up - we are off out for lunch and a long walk later.

Will be back this afternoon with my musings! keep going everyone, it really is worth it xxxxx

Enjoy Biggles and looking forward to your musings. Thanks ladies for the birthday wishes :)