Alchol breaking point. How do I stop?

[GetYourFingersOutOfThere]

I drink too much, every night.

I'm managing during the week to go to work but would like to not drink every night but always do due to stress.

How do you a make a break through when your DH drinks as much but manages it better?

Just as a sobering (literally) note to those comparing their alcohol use to their DH's - I had a healthcheck at work when I'd been sober for about 9 months and the nurse told me he had previously worked at an addiction clinic in Glasgow. He said they would routinely see women coming in drinking considerably less than some of their male regulars, or over a considerably shorter timescale, and these women had gone beyond saving and died.

middlethird - you sound like me. Although even sober my home is neglected, I just feel less stressed about it now . The exhaustion is dreadful - someone told me the expression 'until you get sick and tired of feeling sick and tired'.

Shit. Shit. Shit.

DH and I sank 3 bottles of wine between us last night. I feel like crap today. I need to stop this madness. It will kill me.

I didn't drink all week and didn't want to drink last night but I did. Furious with myself. I wanted to go out for a meal or a walk or the cinema. My husband has turned into a recluse and wanted to stay in. I know that it was sadness, loneliness and boredom which started the bottle.

Today I am travelling 2 hours to see some school friends for an anniversary BBQ. In past events I was so drunk, I fell asleep on a bed and missed the whole thing. I am taking elderflower cordial and ginger ale with me to make mocktails. Pimms will be there and I must not touch it. Wish me luck!

Good luck cordelia I am sure you will have a great time and miss nothing this time.

I am going to a wedding in three weeks. I want to look good and feel good so I am pledging to stop drinking for those three weeks. I will see no wit goes thereafter.

I will post here every single day to chart my progress.

Thanks. Annoyed about my puffy face this morning but we've got a family wedding this week so I'll hopefully look ok by then!

I am throwing up over and over. My stomach aches and I feel dizzy. Why do I think drinking is good when it makes me feel so bad? At least it has been cemented in my brain that I must stop. My DD will get up soon and she will give me that look and I can't bear it.