I'll try to be fairly brief as I posted about this some time ago. I left my last partner about four years ago, an alcoholic who to be honest wasn't especially nice to me. I feel I've spent the last four years trying to make a new life for myself, in a new city, and now feel like I've just had enough. I have made some friends, and spend a bit of time with them, but they have their own lives. I've been at a low point for a while (redundancy hasn't helped), and whilst I get out sometimes and see people when they have time I cannot shake the emptiness. People are busy, some don't return messages.
It has been on my mind in the last few weeks that my XP might take me back. It wouldn't have even been a choice until recently, but I just feel that something would be better than nothing. I really feel like I've reached the end, and in some ways that I'm worse off now than when I left. Are the years we spent together (and, for me, since then) just wasted?