I'm in love with an alcoholic

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I've been seeing this fella since end of July 2013
Met on a drunken nite I was more drunk than him had kiss n cuddle at my mates week later he's asks for my number texts me and ask me would I like to go for a drink I go. Have good time yes go back to his yes have sex
I seen him ever week 4 times or less depending on his work and mine says from third fourth date he doesn't do girlfriends which at time seems cool to me until I become hooked omg he always 99 % of time texts me which is fine but when I text him most of time he don't answer or drunk or sleeping or busy or whatever
I feel with dime if the comments he has made he never got over his ex he text me 1 nite said something which I thought was inappropriate I said to him it was then I said hope u get back with ur ex all the best
My mate just said to me tonite that 3 weeks ago he ask for a girls number
I been with him Friday nite 14 and the Friday nite before he text me the week before that but I didn't go and see him he told me in Friday nite that he loved me so much
Can some please advice me thanks

Self esteem, self worth is more than being confident about how you look though.
There are plenty of stunning people out there with terrible self esteem.
It's more about knowing your value as a person, what behaviour from others you are willing to accept, and what you will not waste your time with.
Hopefully when you have therapy you can explore this.

I don't now how to make me better and stronger

right well the first step is when he texts you next, text back that you are busy. you will immediately feel better and stronger and will be ready for the next step......

I feel a bit worn down by this sometimes I think Im the one with prob at least he knows what
Ok yes that's a start thank u

I have let him get inside my head and it's doing my head in my thoughts

Been to see my gp today really told her honestly how I was feeling and she knows what I have been through in past so so had said to me woman's aid do a course for self esteem :-) just wonder if any of u had been on course or knows anyone who has thanks