Sitting putting nail varnish on while ds is watching a bit of thomas.
Im thinking about how i was. Before i met FW.
I wore make up, i got my hair coloured every now and then.
Ive just let myself go, and i hadnt even realised it.
Im booked in to get my hair done. I am trying, but im so scared.
I would like to wear make up again,but again..im scared.
The times i tried using make up when with him,he accused me of trying to impress others. When i was doing it for me. In the end, i gave up.
Now i worry that others will think im trying to hard as they are so used to seeing me being plain and well, a mess.
How do you do it? Im even too scared to wear shoes. Just trainers. I can look smartly dressed untik you look at my feet. I know this - yet cant find the balls to do anything about it!