So last night we arrived home from visiting DH's family to find a card pushed through our door telling me my DH has been having an affair. I showed him straight away and I laughed it off, thinking he had upset someone and they were trying to create trouble. When I got to bed, he closed the door and told me it was true. He has been shagging someone down the rugby club for the past month, 4 occasions, but tried to finish it 2 weeks ago. He's devastated, promises he will do anything to make things right, and swears he loves me and doesn't know why he did it.
I just don't understand my reaction. I have cried a little bit, and feel sad, but otherwise I am just numb. I don't want to talk about it and don't want to think about it or make any decisions. I just want to carry on and pretend it never happened. I don't even want to hurt my DH or make him suffer, I'm worried I am abnormal. It's been such a shock, my husband is far from perfect, but the one thing I thought I had was his complete and unconditional love for me.I always thought he loved me much more than I loved him, and I trusted him completely. I just don't understand my lack of reaction, it's almost like a paralysis.