The Brave Babes Battle Bus - Kicking The *Wine Witch* Into Touch, Because Enough Is Enough!

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Hello, tis me, Mouse :)

This is a thread for those who are worried about their drinking habits towards alcohol, or/and drugs.

Even if you think that you are drinking more tonight than last night or this week than last, come and have a chat, find a seat, we don't bite!

We are a supportive Bus, full of very different posters, from various backgrounds. Some of us drink in moderation, allowing ourselves the odd glass or two as a treat, or just because we're in control of our drinking for that day.

One Day At A Time.

We have those who abstain completely, and those who wake every day to Day 1 and hope with all of their hearts that they can, and will, make it to Day 2.

If you've followed our journey to date, you'll know who most of us are by now :) and we kind of have two 'sayings', that sum up who we are -

1. • The Vulnerable Need Our Support, Not Our Judgement
2. • Alcohol Fosters Inertia

That said, we will not have any bashing of support groups, such as AA or Community Support Teams or even your own GP.

This Bus is a place for honesty, sanctuary and safety, something that has taken four years for a number of very special, very lovely, very honest and caring Babes to establish.

So, come find a seat, grab something warm from the supply cupboard at the back of the Bus as it's going to be cold tonight! Brrrr!

And, if you'd like to read back over some of our history, HERE IS THE LAST THREAD

And, HERE IS WHERE IT ALL BEGAN

We hope to meet you soon :) xxx

I'm - do you need to see your ex? Is there anyway you can not see him if he brings you down so much. Sorry - I don't know your circumstances regarding kids etc.

I am not getting any boing either Annie. But am trying hard to remember that waking up and realising I have had nothing to drunk the night before is GREAT and I need to remember that in the evening when that beeatch WW is tapping on my window ...Maybe we can all try and remember that.

The shit that we deal with everyday is not made easier by alcohol. It's made MUCH much harder.

Amusingly in the Haggis house I am waiting to see when/if my DH has noticed how dramatically my drinking has reduced. In fairness, we have never discussed it and he was away last weekend. His consumption will go down too as he often just drank to keep me company. He is much more able to have just one or two glasses. Whereas I am an all or nothing type of person sadly.

haggis Im only ment to see him twice a week there's a court order in place for contact with dc's however I feel slightly addicted drawn to him as much as I am the wine but it often ends in disaster the two don't mix I get hurt hes sorry so it goes on x

annie I totally relate to your situation, wine "shakes life up a wee bit" maybe you need to shake yourself up a wee bit. My nightly wine need stopped me going out in the evening and now I'm thinking I need to get back to swimming and classes, could you try doing something fresh?? Also your just on the cusp of weight loss, shiny skin and dewy hair so stay strong and think of things uo

You would enjoy filling the time and brain space xxx

Hello all,

Im good to see you, I hope you are not hurt today. Can you change the arrangements at all to avoid him coming to your place? Meet with the children in a neutral environment, public even? I worry about you and the children. Him, the wine, the hurt, it is a scary cycle. X

baby I hope you are right about all the dewy hair and weight loss, I am patiently waiting for some of that!

Haggis does your dh usually put out the recycling? I bet he notices a difference then

isinde I hope my last post didn't sound pushy, it was intended to be supportive

rural you are doing great, hope tonight is easier for you. I find the first 3 days are the hardest, by day 4 you have run to protect

Good luck for today everyone x

Hi all babes, think the shout has been out for all missing in actio babes so I am jut delurking - my wee boy is in bath atm so this will of necessity short. I am doing ok still sticking to for af days and decreasing the amount I drink on the days I do drink so.......yeah still a bit of work in progress but on the whole I'm ok. Just a note to ma and fairenuff my late dad had a cottage at colvend near dalbeattie so I knew galloway very. Well when we were growing up it is fabulous go you willlove it. Good for biking not bust nor too hilly also if you love to drive the open roads are great.

Baby that is it, I think I need to have something in my life that isn't all work and kids. I used to go to the gym so I promise you I will go on Friday (my next day off). I know eventually if I don't find more interests for me I will just fall back into daily drinking as a reward/consolidation x

choppin sounds like your doing a great job, you sound in control and decreasing is great ( I wish that worked for me) one sip I'm off...

Hello lovely beaches I am recognising I'm in a dangerous cycle I have to break it

Too many triggers picked up. Put in me in the side car tonight'

Im get that ww for me tonight. Take careXX

Snuggle down in there rural my lovely leave the witch to me and the others

Temporarily moves into the bus to make room in sidecar.

Day 2 here.

Glad your back ma

Imdoingthis Saddened to hear that you are having a hard time regarding your ex.

It is very difficult to turn off feelings, not matter how bad the effect those feelings may have on us. But know it is for the best. Wish I could pour you a nice glass of confidence.

Feeling pretty okay today. Got a haircut at the weekend and figured out 'how to do it' myself today. Lashed on some make-up for the first time in 2 months and got cat-called from a car while I crossed the avenue. In days gone by, I would have probably flipped them the ol' bird. But, pathetically, today I secretly smiled. It seems my hair, skin and even my temper has improved sans alcohol. I know I haven't weighed this little since I was 10 years younger.

Sat in an AA meeting the other day, and a woman spoke of her story of NOT losing it all. Still having a job, still had her family, still had friends. She had no sorry tale to tell at all, she felt. But what she said she did was drink and make plans that were just held in beer bubbles. 'I'd love to do this', 'I'm going to go there', 'Wouldn't it be nice if I changed careers'. She somehow ended up at AA. Her entire first year was spent saying, "I doubt I'm a real alcoholic, because my story isn't anywhere near as bad as these folks'. Her take on things now just a few years later, following a new successful relationship, college degree, career change and marathon completion? I wish I had done it sooner. I may not be a real alcoholic, but I wouldn't trade my sober life for anything in the world.

What is alcohol holding YOU back from achieving, Brave Babes?

I enjoyed reading that why great post

Evening, tis me, Mouse

I'm - sweetie - I want to grab you and lock you safe in this Bus. My past, my him was once one of violence, abuse in all forms and horrific treatment from a man that I thought loved me and DD. I'd do anything to make it work, anything because I truly believed that if I loved him enough, if he saw that, felt that, knew that, he'd stop crushing me.

It's strange having no-one telling you how to live your life, what to wear, where to go, who you'd be seeing that day...... no planned day, it's all up to you. YOU. And that is a GREAT thing sweetie. You are in control of your life, and you have to embrace that. You must. Don't lose who you are, who you were..... with support, from us, others, you can get stable, steady and confident about the choices you make again sweetheart. xxx

I need to go put my very poorly boy to bed, he just about managed school but has a horrific cough, which leads to reflux, which means administering extra tube feeds....... and not much sleep but at least last night he wanted daddy for 3 hours so I got a solid block of sleep.

That said, my pain is through the roof. I feel as though I've been kicked hard between the legs because of my pelvis, my hips burn, my lower back is on fire. I can't get comfy. I'm so fed up with this. Nothing works, nothing helps, I can't up my morphine anymore, I just can't. I have to be 'sober' for my boy, DD and DH, not drifting away on a cloud of pain free floating cotton wool!!

Be back soon. xxx

Day 1 (again) today.

Why you've given me food for thought, good question. Your haircut sounds great it's good to have a change can boost confidence

Im sorry that you're having a shit time with X

Rural snuggle down under that warm blanket, tomorrow is another day for Day 1

Annie you're doing amazingly well

Beaches hope all ok with you?

Mouse how's Nemo doing today?

Hello Baby Ma Chopin Soc Nuff hope you're all doing ok today

Woke up a 2am completely parched with that horrible sinking feeling. Been really grumpy today such a depressant.

Soc if you're driving tonight can you get that WW bitch and squash her flat please?

Big hugs to you all lovely Brave Babes

sorry Xpost Mouse sorry that you're in so much pain

Forgot to say Hi Isinde hope you're doing ok x

mouse it toutches me so much that you get me, I feel understanding calm and acceptance from you, it gives me a sense of belonging I have no family so the bus is my new family I left behind my real family my house bla bla,

Take it easy lovely mouse look after you and memo x
I feel sad to hear about your pain and most that nothing helps, your a lady of steal you know?

nemo

Morning Babes
I crashed and burned last night. Actually it wasn’t too bad. Only ¾ of a bottle of wine which for me is a very light evening. Nothing other than just a ‘fuck it’ moment and there I was drinking. Feel ok this morning. Not great, but also having a good think about it. It really wasn’t that nice. Didn’t make me feel fabulous. Didn’t enhance my life in any real way. So back to Day 1 today and strangely even more inspired. I should have gone for a run last night instead of drinking. It has ruined my lovely line of turquoise squares on drinking diary….

annie I can so relate to what you said. It’s exactly what I’m feeling. But I suspect there’s no real answer. I think I’m so wired to thinking that wine makes my life fun and is something to look forward to when really it’s a load of shit.

haggis if we got that boing it would probably help so much. Maybe it takes weeks and weeks?

why hello. Nice post. Your last sentence hit a little hard. I’m going to think about that one.

Got to get kids to school (not so nice with a hangover). And get through today on half throttle because I’ve got a hangover. This really isn’t the way to live. And to think this is what I was waking up to every single day – and a lot worse – is madness. I don’t want to go back to that. Ever. I’m not going to allow this blip to stop me from giving up.

Don’t do it Babes!
xxxx

mouse sorry things are so hard for you. Sending lots of hugs
xxx

mouse I wish there was something they could do to take your pain away for a while. It seems when it comes to backs, there is a limit to the help available. Dd2 is still in constant back pain. Went to see the doctor on campus today who was very nice, ordered full blood works and gave her tramadol so she can sleep. She's only 20 ffs! Also referred her to yet another sports Physio doc who will " get to the bottom of it". Let me count, this will be the 6th Physio, plus an osteopath, acupuncturist,masseur and countless gps. All shake their heads, say her back is swollen/knotted/out of alignment...etc etc and in one case " a right mess" but it seems to be beyond the powers of any medical person to fix it!
You have my sympathy mouse

I feel safe here tonight