The Brave Babes Battle Bus - Driving Through The Autumn Scenes, Searching For Our Sober Dreams.

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Hello, I'm Mouse :) Welcome to the Bus, (aka Gerald ).

I'm one of the Brave Babes on board this fabulous Bus of travellers, all in search of their sobriety in one form or another.

We have those who drink in moderation, those who have a set pattern of days on and off the booze, and we have posters who have been sober for minutes, hours, days, weeks, months or years.

There are two lines that the Bus has painted down the side, one on each -

The Vulnerable Need Our Support, Not Our Judgement and Alcohol Fosters Inertia

So, if you think you're drinking too much or you're worried about another person, then come find a seat.

We get through our days chatting about all sorts of things, life is, after all, full of plenty of things to fuel our desire to drink, and we're all very different people

However, our common goal is sobriety. :)

The Last Thread

The Reason We're Here - The First Thread

Well, great.
Took delivery of two gorgeous evening dresses which I bought on Gumtree, £ 25 for both, unworn.I have a few black tie awards dinners coming up which I have to attend. Those ofn you who have been here a while will remember norkgate.......
So I'm got the dresses, one black with a scattering of tiny sequins, one navy, heavily beaded. Can I fit into either? Can I fuck!
So I have sought refuge in a bottle of wine which will help with the weight loss huh?
Can't stick to low carb. Can't stay off the booze. Feel fat and ugly and pathetic. Anyone want to join my pity party?

Oh ma that's shit. Pretty sure I would have reacted the same way. Sorry I know that's not constructive!

Ma my guess is the dresses are mis-labelled and shockingly undersized Hope you feel better in the morning. X

I have had a big internal battle today, my 'fuck it' self really wanted to take over. Have now got past the danger time. sigh. Hope tomorrow is easier.

Night to all x

Ma don't worry about the dresses. Its always a crapshoot buying online.

Outpatient treatment started today. Group orientation was. hosted by a former crack addict who told me that alcohol was the worst drug ever. Was also told that I would be able to get in touch with the little girl who died inside of me when I started drinking. I have this group 3 times a week! I feel the healing crystals working already. If anybody on this thread is worried about going to AA- please don't be. AA is a no nonesense approach to alcoholism.

I see my boy again tomorrow.

28 days sober.

Happy Hump Day Brave Babes.

Ma Fret ye not! I have to order stuff online 'cos I is a Grande Anglaise and not a teeny tiny French Femme. I reckon I have to send at least 75% of it back because it doesn't fit. So I won't join your pity party. Get yerself down the shops and try stuff on - at least you've got proper shops. I will join you in the bottle of wine last night. DH had a bad day at work and wanted someone to offload on (for hours), it was either me or the dog, the dog got the long straw

Still I've got enough week left to fit my four 'off' in.

Waves to all babes

Just checking in. Day 3. Just read the original thread.Wow. I could've written it and its so inspiring jesus that I feel more positive than I have for a while. Sad though asI am realising I lost my DH, the love of my life due to alcohol. Have a very sweet boyfriend now though. that I am sure prefers the sober me so have just bought lots of lovely food and soft drinks to cook for him this weekend.just texted him to invite him over for dinner and he seemed genuinely pleased. Usually its grabbing some chips after the pub.

why I am worried about walking in, what do I say? What do Ido? Doing tell my family? So much anxiety and I am due to go through a divorce and custody situation. Will it be held against me?

Thank you so much Isinde - I think I might do it as I need to get my old self back. Actually I don't even think I ever had an old self that I even remember as I have drunk since I was 18 and always made friends/got boyfriends whilst drunk. Sad but true. Definitely reading that sober sex thread! I have only been with my partner 4 months and am not sure I have ever had sex withhim sober apart from a quickie in the morning! Feel boring when sober, have so much confidence when I am drunk and that worries me x

AA is a life changer. I go everyday (as recommended at the start). Don't worry fora second about going in. EVERYBODY in that room knows what you are going through and feeling. You don't have to say anything.

And don't worry about AA being held against you. You are making a positive change about yourself for yourself. Courts, employers and officials love that

I told only my mother and one RL friend and my DH that I'm in AA. All are supportive , relieved or impressed.
They say that the beginner is the most important person in the room at AA. You will feel like it. And the relief and sharing of your burden will be something for which you will be forever grateful. Good luck, Fuzzy.

I would always say give AA a try. I have given up so many times on my own and it was shit!

With AA it is so much easier.

Hi lovely babes, I've not been posting but still reading and I'm so touched at reading the support you are all giving each other in this battle against wine. It has played such a huge part in all part of our lives, the good, bad and the very very ugly. I send everyone reading a big hug and wish you all a sober evening. You newbies are doing brilliantly, supporting each other and sharing your feelings, this bus has saved us all in so many ways. Hi to jessie inside ma lovely ladame and our mouse I love you guys.... X

Hi all.

Sorry not caught up with the thread yet.

I've had such trouble logging on this evening, this is the first time it's let me on to the bus! If anyone is struggling, keep trying. If you can't post, just try reading back over some of the old threads for support or inspiration.

Crossing my fingers that this message gets through.

We got you faire loud and clear, how are you doing my friend? Xx

Faire site seems to have been down a lot this evening. U r so caring.

Think the penis beaker thread has been crashing the site
Just checking in and hoping all those battling the ww today are going/gone to bed sober.
Will read back tomorrow
Day 14 done. Really want a drink tho.
Might try controlled drinking tomorrow who am I kidding.
Goodnight babes, sleep well xx

There was a penis beaker thread conjures up a bizarre picture!

On day 10 of round 2 and bargaining with myself about the weekend. Should just forget about the weekend really.

Anyway, lovely to see those who are posting and thinking of those who are not.

Day one again, really need to try harder. I'd been managing 4 or 5 af days a week but I've now drank every night for the past seven nights. Between a glass and half a bottle of wine. I feel like I've slid back into my old habit of working out how much I can drink without it disrupting the next day, and then drinking it.

So now I'm feeling tired and demotivated, puffy faced, all plans of healthy eating have gone out the window too. I'm not sure how I'll get through the long winter nights with out a glass of red wine. It sounds ridiculous but that is what has set me off

Day 15 begins.
Good luck all babes struggling with the WW today.
Just in case you've been on another planet the "Penis Beaker" threads a good distraction

Hello baby :).

annie your pattern is very much like mine. Get day one under your belt again and it will be easier. Just don't have the red wine in the house in the first place. It's the only way for me. Once I have an open bottle in the house I will drink it the next night also.

When you do decide to have a glass try buying one of the little 250ml bottles. Then you don't have the open bottle to swerve the next day.

Where is the penis breaker thread?

Penis beaker thread in classics now. I just put penis beaker into search

If you type mumsnet into google the first 3 searches are penis beaker - day 4 btw x

Feel a bit sorry for the OP. The thread is all over the internet and has made the national press and she didn't even name change. All I can say is Thank you so much OP for keeping the WW at bay the last couple of days, when I could actually get on MN anyway.

Tried to read it but I'm eating my lunch! Will revisit later when i'm not eating!

BRILLIANT!!!!

Am only on page 18 where OP says "can't wait to tell DH that his penis broke mumsnet".

Must go and do something constructive.....

Have a good day babes xx