Reading through MN there seem to be so many abusers, cheaters and weirdos out there!
I myself was with one for years. I just want all of you having a shit time to know it's not acceptable, it's not normal and when you make the break you'll look back and wonder why the f*ck you put up with it for so long.
My heart breaks reading some of your posts, it really does.
Whether you meet someone new or go it alone, don't put up with this crap. Life is short.
No real point of this post other than to say, look around, you're worth more than this. Go be that person you want to be.