I'm not sure if I'm being unreasonable, but I just need to get a little perspective.
Last night like many times before Dp demands I go and give him a cuddle. I was tired. I know that I withdraw from him physically, mainly because a kiss and cuddle are never just that. He usually pesters me incessantly for sex. I feel like I'm constantly giving in to his demands just keep the peace. To stop him from sulking etc. He often thrusts himself onto me whilst hugging me. He'll grope or attempt to have sex with me even when i say no. I have to push him away. Or get up and walk away. I find pressure to have sex a major major turn off. Yet I worry about the lack of intimacy (i have low libido). I feel put upon and constantly tired. He can be quite selfish and lacks empathy which angers me after a long day with dd.
Our sex life has taken a massive hit since having dd. We co-sleep. I suffered badly from PND largely brought on (i think) due to lack of support. I have lost a lot of confidence and almost don't know who i am anymore. I'm just mummy. I wanted to return to work a while back but he categorically said he wanted me to stay at home. He was worried that I'd expect him to help much more than he currently does. I often feel like a single parent, I have to ask him to do things around the house or with dd. We've talked about it but not much changes.
I feel like he controls everything I do. The only thing that I have that is my own is my body. And even that he behaves as though he's entitled to it. I feel like he doesn't respect me by forcing himself onto me. I feel like we're stuck in this vicious cycle of him demanding sex and me being turned off and rejecting it. I just needed to vent.