The Brave Babes Battle Bus - Wondering Where The Spring For Their Boing Is!

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Hi I'm Mouse

One of the Brave Babes on the Bus, a Bus full of different posters, some who drink more than they'd like to and are trying to stop, some who don't drink at all now, and some who are somewhere in the middle. :)

There's no judging here, no finger pointing, no rejection, just pure, unconditional, (occasionally tough), love and empathy.

We all share stories of how we got here, to have our seat on the Bus, looking for our own personal sobriety, our own personal happiness. Sometimes we talk about other things too, you know, like cake, cheese and even day to day life, life that can lead us to breaking point......... lead us to hit rock bottom.

So, why not come say hi, take a seat, post, lurk, whatever suits you :)

This is our latest journey with a link to others

And this is the reason we're ALL here, the first ever thread

Hope to see you soon :)

It was awful. I tried to retrieve it then sent him an email saying he had one in error and please delete it, then I got increasingly drunkupset and sent him one saying oh fuck, oh fuck, oh fuck.....
He sent one back saying PMSL and then was gentlemanly enough never to mention it again for which I LOVE him

Bless him! xx

He truly is an officer and a gentleman, bless him.

Oh dear, can't believe you just posted that TWICE ! Chuckle "norms"

Love it ma tee hee!

ahem, much sympathy to you. Not laughing. oh no. not me ...........! snort.

He could have had a FIELD day with it and resisted the temptation to make even one jibe, which must have called for massive restraint, given his sense of humour. I am genuinely grateful because I would have DIED if he had teased me! He was the best boss ever and a lovely man. sniff

(For anyone interested: DS2's swab cultures showed the sores are, in fact, impetigo!! They can't answer why the two different prescriptions of antibiotics didn't sort the problem but the good news is that the Fucidin cream with a mild steroid seems to be helping! Hooo fucking rah! Only took nearly 8 weeks! Thanks to all for interest and advice Lovelies. xxxx)

Hope you couch yourself silly indie
It was NOT remotely funny and remains a matter of great sensitivity!

Sorry lovely Ma, it IS totally funny. We all love you but we are all laughing. xxxx

Good news at last purple !

Feeling fed up here. Gone all tired and exhausted again. What's the point in giving up alcohol, when I don't feel any better? Too lethargic to be cross.

(Have posted a photo of my gorgeous re-homed dog (the black one) - who never really liked other dogs (!?) - asleep on the sofa in her new home with her new best friend. It was totally the right thing to do, she has now has constant companionship.... but....we still miss her. Love you Libs xx)

Day 9 is awesome indie. I am totes impressed. Good luck visiting the parents.
purple can't see your photo but glad she is happy.

Morning babes.
Aw MA, your norkage e-mail is classic, it reads like a scene out of Bridget Jones!! Agree that your boss sounds fab for keeping schtum!
Wow signing up for 10k is amazing, huge good luck.
Purple great news on getting to the bottom of skin complaints, hopefully it all clears up now. Brilliant news about Libby, must be such a relief to know you made the right decision!

My crazy boy is driving me crazy!! I suppose I should be glad that he loves me so much and wants to be with me, and chatting to me...ALL THE TIME...but arghhhh!

Wishing all babes strength for the weekend
Xx

ma are 'norms' an abbreviation of enormous ??

enormous

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Morning, tis me, Mouse - reporting from my little nest in the sidecar.

I've not really caught up, other than seeing the 'tits in the soup' email which gave me a much needed .

I'm stressing about Nemo going to school after Easter. I'm getting so much conflicting advice on this, that and the other that my head is spinning. I'm scared and upset. I don't want him to have to go through the separation process. Maybe I don't either, want to go through it myself.

I can't go into lots of detail because we're going out for the day soon but I have started to have a drink every night. Not to excess, just a couple of glasses of wine, but it's every night.

My pain levels are through the roof. My emotional state is all over the place, fuelled by alcohol of course. I feel lost and sad. I want Nemo to be happy and safe and sail through these next few weeks but the cynic and depressive in me tells me loud and clear, day in, day out, that he'll struggle big time.

My worry is will they let him cry it out, or tell me. We saw CAMHS yesterday who said that I need to tell preschool this, all of my concerns. He's not like any other little boy that they have had, he's Nemo. And I'm more than aware that I have a skewed view because of how close we are.

She also said that I need to tell him that I am leaving but will be back, not sneak out like preschool have been doing it, as that just confuses him. I'm just so tired.

Sorry to just dump this and run but my head is fucked! I have so much to sort out before Monday............. I need to write yet more lists and deal with them.

Will be back later. Sorry xxxxx

Really struggling here today. Got loads to do for holiday tomorrow and DD is being horrible. She seem to really want to hurt me. Said yesterday that she's probably going to sleep on the 6+ hour journey "Oh, I was hoping to have your company - like last year. She came back with "It's not my fault you left Dad and haven't got anyone to help you with the driving!!" (The split was more or less mutual) She forgets - we hardly ever went on holiday because we were permanently broke due to him!! "Nothing ever gets done around here!" Tried, calmly to explain that it's not easy being a single Mum of three on a limited budget with no help and mentioned stress. She scoffed "What have you got to be stressed about?!" Claims she's 'always helping with the washing up'! - About 3 times in two and a half years!! I know, I know she's only 11 and the dog business and everything but why does she have to be so nasty.

Grrrrrrrrr! Sigh, sorry, venting again.

Morning ladies.

ma .... snurk.... that's made me chuckle. Twice . I'm liking "norms".

mouse ah, well, you've hit the dilemma/pain/upset stage we all go through when we have to separate ourselves from our babies - but magnified a thousandfold. {HUG} Keep talking to CAMHS people. They have dealt with a few situations like yours so have a framework to build around, which will help you, DH, DD and Nemo deal with what's ahead. I think her advice of leaving him and telling him you're coming back is very sound. Just disappearing is not so good. You're giving Nemo a base from which to work from (in his mind). You have given him facts. It will be OK, a few hiccoughs to be sure, but it will be OK. You must believe in you, him, and everyone's wish to do the best for you all, especially Nemo. The anticipation of a situation is often much worse than the reality when it arrives..... So stay strong, stay off the wine, stay calm....

purps two words. "Hormones" and "pre-teen". They know right where to hit you so it hurts, little buggers. I still get really hurtful comments and DS is now nearly 16.... I think a mutter about "pocket money" "mobile phone" etc. ought to make her cool her heels a little.

Anyhow, work. I can't say very much. HR is a she and a narcissistic bully. Nuff said. No union - in our business, you're not allowed to join one. ACAS may be the way to go...... But I'm still here, still worried, but still here......

You all have a calm and peaceful weekend if you can. x

purple pre-teens are just horrible sometimes, aren't they? I guess all you can do, is the same as you did when they were toddlers - not get too wound up, repeat the same thing to them over and over (remember how long it took a toddler to grasp something?) and give her security; I suppose it is unsettling at this age when parents divorce and your pet disappears - it may be that she doesn't actually blame YOU, but she needs to find a 'reason' and you end up being the target.

God I don't know if any of that makes sense.

I am sure you're right Lemony. In the car so nuking things over. I've bee using alcohol as on the past. I know he will be fine and I can only take it ODAAT.

I am moving my nest into the Bus and digging my big girl pants out. I am the only problem here, my own insecurities and past failings. So. Enough. Thank you Lemony. I have the support there, I need too use it. Start a fresh my way Monday using the tools that SENCO and CAMHS will give me.

:) xx

Sorry for typos as on phone. Sure you can work it out! :D xx