Whooooo Juliette!! Excellent stuff. Well done.
Would I want him if I met him now? Yes, probably. He is excellent company, totally gets my sense of humour, we can talk for hours, great in bed, very generous, so on a fairly superficial "dating" level it is very, very good. It's on a deeper emotional level that things start getting a bit difficult. If I'd known about the effects of the depression and general fucked-up-ness I probably wouldn't have got into a relationship with him in the first place. He did tell me about the depression, but very much gave the impression that it was in the past and was not affecting his life at the moment. He also told me early on that he was ready for a new relationship. Hmmm. I think I am going to have what will probably be a difficult conversation with him soon, either tomorrow or over the coming few days/week and the outcome of that will make things very clear. I am going to tell him clearly what I want/need and hope he will be honest and straightforward with me.
But I am not scared of being on my own again, even though it makes life a bit greyer, and I would find someone else before too long, I'm sure. It's just the thought of starting again is a little bit daunting, but I've had worse things happen to me. It would be such a shame too, as he really is a lovely man, just fucked up like he said.