no, i think it needs to happen. He really needs a friend right now.
I agreed to see him but said that he needed to know that i cant fix his shit. Im not magic, i am not responsible for his shit. It does not mean i want anything to happen, that there are certain things we cannot and will not discuss. and that i dont want to talk about these things while before seeing him.
he has assured me he is now single, but does not want me to think hes come running because he is feeling vunerable. That he understands totally and just wants to see me. He asked if i would meet him at the train station, which might not sound much, but he was the most arrogant man in the world... and he seems so beat he cant even find his way to the pub with a map.
I hadnt spoken to him in ages and ages and i said he needed to know that i dont love him, i did, but i dont. I also told him i didnt want to be judged in any way as i may have put on some weight since i last saw him, he was cross that i could even think that would be an issue, and then said that he had aged... i told him that didtn matter.
Appolgies for bad behaviur on both sides and a general misunderstanding, lust, hindsight and everything..... A strange situation, nearly 4 years in the making.
So, in a way, im hoping its just a nice afternoon and evening. and then thats it. A hug and a goodbye and its all sealed up nice and tidy.
Snape - have a good date :)