The Brave Babes Battle Bus - Are Going To Need A Bigger Bus!

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Hello, tis me, Mouse

Welcome to the Brave Babes Battle Bus, it's a place of solace, support and sanctuary, but also it's also a Bus full of chatterboxes, waffling on about all sorts!

Our aim this year is to kick the WineWitch or WW into touch and get sober!

Some of the Babes on board are doing Dry January, some drink in moderation, some just drink. Some of us are sober, some of us are trying so very, very hard to be.

Some of us have been dry for days, weeks, months and some of us years...... some of us are just starting out and are scared of what stopping drinking means. It's not forever, it's just for today if that's what you want.

We have a saying on the Bus One Day At A Time. Or ODAAT

Take each moment, each day and each blip as it comes.

Although some Babes have been here a while and kind of 'know' each other, we all have different lives, different roles to play, different places to sit on the Bus, but we ALL have or have had abusive relationships with alcohol and we're here because we want that to change; for the better.

EVERYONE IS WELCOME HERE so don't be afraid to just jump right in and say hello. Post as much or as little as you like! It's all up to you.

For those who want to catch up - here is the PREVIOUS THREAD

And the first ever thread, with links to the others over the last almost 3 years! FIRST THREAD

ah. Thank you

Well I haven't lost any more weight since Wednesday, although I'd lost 2lb then (which I'd gained over the weekend ) so I'm still at the same weight as I was a week ago! Despite not drinking at all during the week and only very moderately at the weekend and following the low GI diet.

I am premenstrual though, and quite bloated and sore, so hopefully that's why and it will fall off me once my period arrives. [hopeful]

Where the devil is Soma? You alright babe?

However even if I haven't lost any weight there have been many other benefits, which I shall list to spur myself on...

• I feel happier and calmer than I have in years, even though I'm premenstrual and noticeably more irritable.
• I have reduced my anti depressant dose by a quarter, and will reduce by another quarter in a couple of weeks. I don't usually do that until at least March or April, as I always find winter really hard.
• I have vastly more energy than I usually have, especially considering the time of year.
• I have tackled loads of little chores and tasks that I normally just put off and worry about, then feel overwhelmed, then 'soothe' myself by wasting time (that I could've spent actually doing the tasks) reading MN (I don't count this thread in that) or the Daily Fail. Now I don't read either (apart from this thread), don't fill myself with all that depressing nonsense, and feel a lot better for it.
• I'm much more patient with DD.
• I am sleeping much much much better.
• I don't wake up in the night drenched in sweat any more. Or smell of sickly stale booze in the mornings. [boak]
• I am taking a fraction of my usual amount of codeine meds that I've been reliant on for years due to back pain. Partly due to my posture being better because I'm less tense, partly that I'm noticing my posture (I've got a curvature of the spine) when it's bad and doing something to alleviate it. Partly because I feel more able to cope with the pain without medicating it. Also because I would take them for the headaches/not sleeping/shitty sad and anxious moods due to being hungover.
• A chronic abscess under a tooth (painless thank god) for which I was told I'd have to have the tooth extracted, and have just been ignoring for well over a year despite knowing how stupid that is, seems to have resolved! It's stopped discharging pus into my mouth daily, anyway. [triple boak] Sorry tmi!
• I've saved lots of money from not drinking nearly as much.
• I feel the boing!

Sorry if I'm being annoyingly positive at the moment. It's so rare that I feel it that I just want to make the most of it!

Holly - Insanity really. - nope, HABIT

quite heavy snow here - and I say that as a proper experienced Scot. usually the folks down here wimp out at the first sign of snow (5cm? that's barely an inch!) but this is the real stuff.

going to have some stovies and watch the Day After Tomorrow. or read that Agatha Christie where everyone gets stuck in a blizzard.

mia why are your squids whites?

Hi babes
the ww starts her evil work early on Fri doesn't she?
am ashamed to say that the bad bitch won last night even though it was already late. that just meant that i had to swig the wine from the bottle in wardrobe whilst DH took the dog out. Eric Morcambe was funny when he was hiding a bottle up his sleeve and keeping his arm dead straight to drink it. i just felt crap - even when i was doing it. then of course couldn't sleep for ages and woke knackered. i feel such a conwoman when peole give me sympathy for the effects of brca treatmnent when i know a lot of why i feel shit is my own fault.

Joey i always convince myself that my stash is actually a good thing as i get panicky if there isn't sufficient booze i can get my hands on. in theory the stash is so i don't have to feel like that, buit i always end up necking it.

Jango can you throw the bottle in the snow and let the vinegar-faced harridan feezes her tits off.

Purlple BIG not little boing. 6lbs and 8 days. you can make 8 into 80, keep going.

Mia i know what i'm making for tea tomorrow - your egg fried rice. i love that dish but never realised you do it healthily. might have sone sort of spicey fish with it.

you could

Evening Babes lovely day down here, watched tv until satellite packed up due to weight of snow - so had to get off my arse and moved along a bit further with decorating the hall - nice steady hands now good for cutting in and using the caulk gun!

Well done to everyone avoiding the WW wow those days are just flying by - so many of you in double figures and the weight loss bonus is great too.

Off to residents meeting tonight at the pub - just found myself thinking 'I wish they served tea!!!!' - weird or what. I'm tempted to try on the new dress in the smaller size I bought the other week, but don't want to be disappointed - its hanging in my bedroom beckoning me.

Think I'm finally getting over the sugar cravings as I just had to have toasted bagel with butter and marmite - the first bite was soooo salty, but I remembered why it was one of my favourites after the second (bagel that is)

Hoping to get to AA tomorrow as haven't been since monday - so hoping snow will have eased up a bit and I can get the car up the hill.

I WILL NOT BE DRINKING

mia ditto everything you posted - you sound in such a good place
well done lovely - it's a shame to spoil all that good stuff happening with stupid poisonous gut wrecking spirit breaking liver killing brain numbing alcohol isn't it - least that 's how I feel - my boiiing and I don't care if sometimes we sound optimistic cos we feel optimistic. Have a good evening.

Holly
it's only some of the parents who might be resentful. i bet most are a bit jealous but wish you well. DDs little friends will just see it as another positive achievement, so why the hell should she not share her success? anyone decent will see that you doing the best for her does not mean you think yourself better than everyone else. ignore negative comments. celebrate by having good food as other posters are doing.

whores not whites (autocorrect obviously doesn't like naughty squids)

phoenix could you try just delaying the first drink, even if you manage to wait 1 hour, it means less time to drink. also you may find the cravings go after a bit.

Darn it - (re new size 14 dress) can't get the zip done up and belly still about 5 months pregnant - mustave been kidding myself I was a 16 more like 18 - delusional or what.
How many pounds do you need to lose 2 dress sizes ? Oh well back to the big snuggly jumper and granny trousers for a few more weeks.

Mia - I am no longer on antidepressants after being on and off them my whole adult life.

What does that tell you? Rather a lot I think.......

I still get my low points but it's more down the lack of sleep and pain. I take diazepam for muscle spasms in my back and hips, not for my mood and the dose I take is a 'quick hit' dose to help relax the muscles rather than a gradual high IYSWIM?

I know that my mood swings are also controllable now.... as in if it's DH getting on my rather sizeable breasticles being a prat, I can walk away and count to 1,000,000 10.

I understand now that alcohol escalates my moods by a huge amount, both the positive and the negative. It's not all it's cracked up to be.

thanks fragrant I know, it's just a shame we can't celebrate her achievements without snide comments :( Just admitted to dh that i actually feel like a drink tonight - he said 'why? do you want to feel like shit??' which has helped a bit. grr, what is it about tonight???

i'm franticaaly posting here to keep you-know-who at bay. i DESERVE a drink at this time on Fri. but no, i deserve to be looked after, nourished and loved. i am going to give myself what i give without thinking to my DSs and DH.

Sorry to dissapoint (that's not spelt correctly is it?) all those who have gorgeous boyish little bundles. they will discover what willies are for soon - very very soon. the last time i ranted to DS1 about his bedroom - in the hope that he would do something about the socks - he apparently started putting said 'used' items back in his underwear drawer (as i discovered a couple of weeks later) WTF!!

But Ma a vibe

mouse, ma
thanks for the chuckle. 'norkage dept.', 'shrunken breasticles' [pissing myself emoticon]. will post on the state of mine later. anyone with a nervous disposition look awayn

i'll go away now and stop swaggering up and down the bus talking loudly as if i've had some refreshment when i haven't.

phoenix keep posting.

You could pick up that bottle or you could hang on in there for another 1/2 hour? 15 mins? Get a sweet fizzy drink (not champagne). How about not drinking tonight then see how you go tomorrow?
Or how about just holding on a little longer before having that first drink? See where that takes you.

Sorry not being bossy much but Barry will be very upset, you know!

Also I'm looking at my beautiful little sod ds and I just don't believe you.

phoenix if swaggering up and down the bus keeps you off the wine then carry on !!

Umm I'm also a 32G and don't usually find myself in such large breasted company