The Brave Babes Battle Bus - New Year? So, Let's Go Up A Gear!

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Hello, tis me, Mouse (normally Mouseface but I'm wearing my festive name )

Welcome to the Brave Babes Battle Bus, to a place of solace, support and sanctuary, if that's what you seek of course. It's also a Bus full of bloomin' chatterboxes, waffling on about life, love and all things from school reports to laundry!

The journey into 2013 is going to be an ass kicking one as we're moving up a gear to give the WineWitch a bloody good slapping, and the BoozeBeast a kick in the bollo.............

Some of us drink in moderation, some of us drink. Some of us are sober, some of us are trying so very, very hard to be.

Some of us have been dry for days, weeks, months and some of us years...... some of us are just starting out and are scared of what stopping drinking means. It's not forever, it's just for today if that's what you want.

We have a saying on the Bus One Day At A Time. Or ODAAT

Take each moment, each day and each blip as it comes. The support on this Bus has kept me from ruining my life time and time again. The experiences of others shared here has helped me to change the way I see alcohol, the way I see what it does to me.

Although some Babes have been here a while and kind of 'know' each other, we all have different lives, different roles to play, different places to sit on the Bus, but we ALL have or have had abusive relationships with alcohol and we're here because we want that to change; for the better.

Everyone is welcome here so don't be afraid to just jump right in and say hi. Post as much or as little as you like!

So, come say hi, grab a seat, an eggnog (non alcoholic of course ) and a mince pie, or chocolate chip cookie, and meet some lovely, genuine people who are just like YOU.

Also, HERE IS THE PREVIOUS THREAD with a link in the OP to the first ever thread, and the reason why after more than two and a half years, this thread is still here, supporting those in need.

purple bloody well done on Day 2 and quality time with the Dcs.
In fact, bloody well done to everyone!
Am tucked up in bed with a cup of tea, safe from the wine witch just for today. Night all

purple well done to you too, and let's hope we all get a decent nights sleep!

Still lurking a bit, been out all day then crazy dash to get Xmas decs down, iron uniforms,get dcs ready for school, me for work, house clean etc. Really want to post properly but just briefly....
Clutter - best of luck with interview tomorrow, will send over good vibes at 8.30.
Purple, Mouse, Koti, Guggs , Green and all - sorry am not able to keep up with commenting on all your posts, but you all always inspire me and make me laugh, and am quite in awe of Ma!
Holly - stop making me want another cat! Have promised the couch I will not get another pet with claws, but Smudge sounds ace!
Welcome newcomers. Good luck with beating the wine witch.
I am on day 4 today. Diet tomorrow too. So if I find any spare opal fruits around the house I will bung them your way as long as you stop fighting over the green ones.

Thank you everyone for your personal mentions, I feel very important and special, will post to everyone individually tomorrow but I'm off to bed sober and tired but hopeful, you beautuful babes are changing lives, what
A gift, whatever you think about yourselves, you are special each and every one of you, x x x x

koti DH had already got some bug spray, and it seems to be working. there are loads of bugs, but o think they are all dead or dying.

how are you doing?

Joey do you know what they are? How big are they? Have you photographed them? That would freak me right out!

I just want to record that I'm feeling so much better than I was a week ago! I didn't have any wine before or during dinner yesterday. Had a little (sherry glass sized) glass of dessert wine. It was nice but after about two thirds of it I found it a bit sweet and gave it to DP. He's claiming I've been swapped by fairies or something.

Today is usually a big drinking day, and I'd planned to drink with the roast dinner tonight. At 5.10pm DP had a beer and I was feeling hungry - usually a huge trigger to start drinking, which means I scull back half to three quarters of a bottle of white before dinner, just because It's cold and refreshing and I'm hungry. Today I went and had a snack instead and didn't feel any cravings at all. I had a couple of glasses of red with dinner but gave my last half a glass to DP and let him finish off the bottle. Later I had a little glass of port.

I feel so so so much clearer headed and positive for this few days of healthy eating and not drinking. I don't know why on earth I've found it so much easier this time, maybe it was just the right time. I can't remember ever feeling this positive in January (even though DD is being pretty challenging at the moment!) - this is usually my worst time of year. The releif I get from easing the tension of the day by making it warm and fuzzy with drink is more than compensated for by how much clearer headed I feel the next morning, how much better I'm sleeping, how much better I feel about myself.

Hi, ive been lurking for ages, and have finally decided to join as i really need some support and you lot are an amazing bunch. I am currently reading thread 4 aswell as keeping up to date here of course!
Am having a pretty shitty time at the moment... Been made redundant... And nothing in the pipeline as yet... Living in another country to my DP... My home rented out in UK so am having to live with my parents (in yet another country ) and although I know my drinking is bad now... I am scared it will get worse and worse..
So... I had my last drink 31st dec... Well it wasnt exactly 'a drink' more like 2bottles of red, half bottle champangne, and half a bottle of port... And no, i didnt even feel particualy drunk... Yes, im bad!
So an emotional day on 1st jan waving off dp, who i will probably not see for at least a month.. If not more.... Spent the day in tears, couldnt eat... But actually also coundnt drink as i was feeling so sorry for myself! So, i took the oppotunity for that to be my daaay1!
Managed to get to day 5!! But last night really thought i could just have 1glass of red(my usual evening choice) ... But no, i drank the bottle :-( felt really dissapointed and spent most of today in tears about it, but decided to not drink today... And i havnt!
Like i say i am reading all the previous threads, that is keeping me VERY busy!!
But i am really struggeling!
Thanks for reading and hope to meet you all soon!
MrD

Welcome mrD everyone here has some kind of poor relationship with alcohol so no one is judging. Well done for getting on the bus

joey that must be horrible! Glad you found out what was causing the bites though.

waves at kotinka and help and mia and baby and can I just say everyone now?

mia must be tough because I 'know' you are a good cook and enjoy good food, thats a hard association to break from good food and good wine.And thats on top of the usual 'I want a drink because I feel....'

Well done babes who made it through yesterday. Sunday has always been a massive drinking night for me Y'know as a reward for being 'good'

mouse
I'm sorry to say but until it's all in place, all throughout your body, mind and soul, you just won't stop

That made a lot of sense to me and I hope that I can turn the corner here. Actually, the things the sober babes say are beginning to make sense to me.

Today I am job hunting,going to a meeting and attempting to understand the incomprehensible chapter I need to read for my brain melting (for me) course. On go the SUMG pants, not in a size 6 though.

Morning, tis me, Mouse

Clutter - I'm thinking of you, you can only do as much as be you and get answer the questions they ask. I really hope it goes well for you lovely xx

Gugg - I'm glad my words made sense to you because every single sober Babe on here will tell you the exact same thing. You have to want it more than anything else in your entire life. You have to want to stop for good, even if you just stop for that day. It has to be an absolutely firm, solid desire to pack it the feck in and stop pickling your organs from the inside!

You have to see it, feel it want to be rid of the hangovers, the fugg, the feck ups, the guilt, shame, embarrassment, you have to want to change your LIFE.

Good luck with the job hunting, can I ask what you're looking for? xx

Hello MrD - welcome to the Bus. Sounds like you had a cracking NY. Loneliness is a massive trigger for me so I can certainly empathise with you missing your DP. I'm not great at alone time for long periods.

Sounds as though life has dealt you a pretty shit hand of late, but I'm really pleased to read that you managed to have five alcohol free days because that tells me you CAN DO IT. So, put last night down to experience and a bit of a slip, we're all guilty of those, and start today a fresh.

Are you self employed or looking for a permanent roll, could you perhaps look at contract or temp work for a while? Sorry that you have a lot on your plate right now, please don't let the WineWitch make it 100 times worse by making you feel even lower........

Posting is a huge step too, I think you can see that getting hammered is not going to make your DP or a new job materialise any time soon but the support of the Bus, will help you get through the shitty times.

Morning all and welcome to MrD. I know it seems really tough at the moment but it does get easier. Stick with it and keep reading those threads, there is an absolute wealth of advice and s'all good

Today is Motivational Monday. We can do it, we will do it. It's just one day. See you later babes x

Last night was better here, Nemo only woke the once requiring DH getting out of bed. Not sure what we're going to do today but we are getting out of the house!

Swimming or soft play hell, not sure which I can cope with yet... I do need a few bits from town so I may take him shopping and then to the park in town. Best check the weather!

Mia - well done for swapping the wine for actual food! Not an easy habit to break. Sounds as though you are getting there in terms of seeing the bigger picture. You almost sound bored of drinking............

Ma - are you still feeling really positive? Keep going lovely lady! I hope that the fire you had in your belly of late stays well and truly lit!

Thurso - when will you find out more about your course and the tutor etc....... did I miss that? I know you said it wasn't as bad as you first thought but didn't she move the goal posts again?

Joey - we're rural so get loads of critters in the summer..... black beetle type things but they are tiny so we just shut the window when they appear for a day or so, then they BUGger off (see what I did there? )

What sort of critters were they? Sounds awful for you all.

Day 3

Have requested the council to come out and deal with bugs. still not sure what they are, or even whether they are causing DDs bites. If we blitz the whole room, throw out half her toys, boil everything else, buy a new bed and she still comes out in bites I think I will turn back to the bottle.

She slept in the spare room, but its 'strange' in there, so I shared the sofabed with her. Result: uncomfortable and not enough sleep

clutter how did you get on with the interview?
mrD welcome, and well done for being brave and posting!

IsinDe - I've missed your posts, day 6? Really? That is amazing!!! How did I miss that?!! Well done you xxxxxx

Off to the shops and park, DH is sulking because I CBA o pander to him being needy. As in affection. I am rather busy you know!

Back for lunch, who wants what? I've got all sorts in............ xx

all sorts as in Liquorice All Sorts?

purps you OK?
indie day 6, bloody brilliant.

purple you ok babe? Hi everyone hope everyone is feeling positive and ready for a new week x x x x

joey don't suppose you have a potted plant in dds bedroom? I once had one in bathroom that was crawling with little black critters, came out the soil apparently.
Morning all. Finally sleeping again, having probs staying awake actually! 7 nights done now. Face looking less red and bloated (never a good look).
Welcome mrsd well done baby

tiger we used to, but its been gone awhile. there is some pot-pourri but no bugs near it, only on windowsill. I'm paranoid about everything now. my mother suggested the whole 'bites' thing was psychosomatic...

purple are you okay chick?

and would you Babes at the back of the Bus stop throwing opal fruits wrappers?