The Brave Babes Battle Bus - Spicing Up The Winter Nights With Rich Hot Chocolate And Thermal Tights!

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Hello, I'm Mouse

I'm one of the Brave Babes travelling on this fantabulous Bus, on it's journey to the wonderful world of sobriety.

The great thing is, that the people on here are a real mixed bunch. Some are drinking regularly, some aren't. Some are sober and have been for any number of days, some weeks, months and yep, some even for years.

There's no judging pants allowed, no savoury flans either , just lots of unconditional support from many varied sources. Yes, some of us have been here from the start but please don't let that stop you posting, this thread is for EVERYONE and it always has been

If you'd like to have a look back, here are some links. One to the previous thread and one to the very first, and the reason we are all still here.

See you soon,

Mouse xx

PREVIOUS THREAD

FIRST EVER THREAD

Winey - big hug. Stay in bed. You will get hungry though.... skip previous advice.

Well, for me pride comes etc. While I was delighted with 5days wine free... Had wine and port this evening... anyways.

I was in the car one day and I saw this guy on the footpath smoking . He never really lowered his cigarette, just brought it 6inches from his mouth . Even though he was young , I thought you are an addict . Plus that is how i drink.

I wasn't hungry but i was angry(children and travel and leaky nappies ), a little Lonely and Tired. DH home late. Anyway i had 5 nights wine free so can i stay please?

gugg! Hello! I remember your name from my last stint on here. Nice to 'see' you again.

For me this is the end of Day 3.

Onwards and upwards.

I've made myself (who am I kidding, DH made me) a big cup of mint tea and that's kept me going through the danger patch this evening.

penelope - you will have done so much good to your body with five clear days, so feel good about that. Don't beat yourself up ... just get back on the horse! I don't know how long you've been trying to give up as I'm new back to this thread, but I've been having patches of sober/not sober/trying to get sober for ages and the lovely Babes keep having me back, picking me up and helping me on my way again.

They are amazing.

Woke up feeling disappointed in myself but am now thinking perhaps I needed to do that... I don't need wine I just drink as I am bored so will find something else to do. Today I will clean bedroom find a good book and look forward to a Saturday evening wine free. Thank you all for listening.:)

Sending you lots of blue light help. Does this mean you won't be able to enjoy eating over Christmas? Bird it's great to hear from you, so positive as always. I read something so simple last night by a recovered alcoholic (Sally Brampton) who said that for her abstinence was easy, it was moderation that she found impossible. That's the same for me, it's straightforward for me not to drink but as soon as I start trying to moderate, that's when it all goes wrong again. So just for today, I won't be drinking....

Morning babes, I too am on a constant attempt to kick/reduce wine and I have found the more days that I manage to not drink sometimes the pressure mounts with each passing day because of the pressure I put on myself. Now I just think 1 day at a time, sometimes I manage (currently on day 3) sometimes not but before finding this thread It was every day with no possibility of success so because we are talking, thinking, trying to cut back we are already winners x x x

Good to hear you sounding so positive Baby. What plans for today? I'm helping DD bake some Lorraine Pascale Christmas biscuits (she saw the recipe on TV last week and decided to do them for her friends rather than buy presents) and I'm not going to be sneaking wine while I do it!

I'm off to yoga to encourage serenity and calm (needs to really bloody good to help me) then spend the day visiting to keep busy and celebrate not having a hangover xxxxx

Hello Babes on the Bus.
Thank you all for keeping me sane all last night whilst reading through posts. If you don't mind I'm going to climb aboard and join you all. (Also new to MN). Stopped drinking Thursday night after an all day 3 bottle of white wine bender that frankly has been the norm for so long now I can't go on like this anymore. Friday spent all day in bed too scared to get out in case I went to the shop and last night was shaking and having strange palpitations whenever I lay down - hence the internet surfing. I've taken 5mg Temazepan to calm me down and (as you've all suggested) eaten 3 chocolate biscuits for the sugar! I'm going to have a bath in a minute as I stink. I'll need support from you today if you don't mind as I'm on my own here and am determined to beat this addiction to all my substances Alcohol first then sleeping pills then Anti Depressents - but one at a time and a day at a time.

See ya all later

All good Baby have a great day.

Checking in. Had a lovely evening last night at our chairman's gorgeous house - Christmas tree in bay window, tasteful decorations, two golden retrievers, log fire.....it was like something from a film set. [Grin]
Today is dd1s birthday. She is 22.
Will be having a glass or two to celebrate but really am starting to feel a change is gonna come with the drinking. Mind set is beginning to shift if that makes sense.
Have agreed that a friends husband can act as personal trainer next year to get me fit. Am scared of him a bit but I need an arse kicking and he's the man to do it. He will also want to see a food and drink diary! What HAVE I done?

Afternoon babes, reading but too hungover to post properly, just quickly to say koala welcome you will find support here. Do you have any other support? GP, aa?

koala so glad to have you on our bus, fantastic job so far, your a strong cookie. Everything your going through is normal, sweats and palpitations etc but won't last too long. Reward yourself with a take away (home delivery and have lots of treats on hand. Tonight I'm having an Indian and lots of lovely popcorn and watching a movie, it's part physical and part habit so keep busy and if all else fails, go to bed early. Remember we have all been there, are there, will be there, post as often as you need to, I'm in all night and will hold your hand and sit beside you on the bus. Remember you have already spared your body about 4 bottles just up til now, hour by hour, day by day, good luck and so good to have another friend in our babe battalion x x x

Hi Greeneyed - thanks for the welcome. Unfortunately I find it difficult to ask for assistance except from my nemesis Mr Pinot Grigio. Doctor thinks I drink about a bottle a night (and was concerned at that!). Am looking into AA as I went for about a week 18 months ago but relapsed and its been downhill since then.

I think thats why I like the anonymity of you guys, non judgemental and understanding.

Feeling refreshed and clean after bath and hairwash. I'm gonna get dressed and nip out for some cigarettes (oh another bloody addiction).

But no wine I WILL NOT DRINK TODAY - I'm playing the video forwards and using all the tips picked up from you guys - by the way whats the T in HALT ?
I can't remember and I'd have to scroll back so far to find it.

Ok back from shop safely. Picked up a Chicken Tikka ready meal, which at the moment is in the Oven. Until you reminded me Babyjane I havent eaten since Thursday morning apart from the biccies this am that is. I didn't hang around just took your lead (less decisions and less distractions) grabbed the catfood and fags and almost ran out of there !

Back on the liferaft that is my bed - thanks for being my life vest in case I suddenly slip I very much appreciate it. Its difficult when there is noone around.

Koala, well done for getting out of the shop - yes eat!! How are you feeling physically now? I have no experience of withdrawal but do think if you still have any worrying symptoms you should call NHS direct or out of hours GP. It's quiet here this aft - babes are probably Christmas shopping, will be some wiser babes along with some support later. The T is tired, it's probably the worst trigger for me!

I'm off out for a few hours but will catch up with each and every one of my super babes when I get back. We are all fabulous, every one of you guys make my little piddly life seem better, Crikey this yoga shit works x x x

Koala - welcome. This is a safe place to be and you will get nothing but help and support here. I might not be around much tonight as it is dd's birthday, but hang in there. We all understand.

T in HALT is tired! It's a real trigger.
ma I will indeed be having a food free Christmas! Even thinking about food is agony as the problem is my salivary glands. At the moment I'm dosed up on painkillers and antibiotics and just eating enough to protect my stomach from the drugs.
Love to all.

Soba it was you who kindly asked after my Christmas food!

Help that is hideous, you poor thing

penelope 5 sober days is amazing, hope I can do the same!!! lrd your also sounding fab on day 3, same as me?. winey let's keep trying together, soba thanks for all your positive, dynamic comments, you keep me positive. koala your amazing, you are showing us all it can be done. ma I think it's great your setting goals for getting fit, you will have the body to go with your fresh, wine free face!!! green when you wake up tomorrow, hangover will be gone and a new day dawns. help your so positive despite your awful pain, your a star. If I've forgotten anyone I'm sorry, just want you all to know how much you are helping me, I was so lost and lonely before I found this thread And now I feel part of something hopeful and strong x x x

ma you sound so happy and positive - I hope you have a lovely evening with your daughter.

have got some more wine tonight which is a slip from my goal of once a week only. I dunno, something is not quite right in my head. I could give all sorts of excuses but I know they would just be excuses. maybe I have to just say I want some wine. stop finding reasons.

okay, changes for the future. think Joey. well, my sore shoulder - painkillers and a hot bath. the party next door? bless them, we were young once. earplugs.

my mother. it's only a few hours, it will be okay. diazepam? everything else can wait til tomorrow. odaat.

A warm welcome Koala how is the evening going? I like the sound of yours Baby, DD and I are on the sofas all cosy after a disastrous afternoon's baking. We tried a Lorraine Pascale recipe for stained glass window Christmas biscuits (looked easy on telly of course) but our attempt was an epic fail :( She was going to give them to her friends as gifts so we'll have to think of something else.

Had a passing craving earlier but it well, passed....Being here with all of you makes me feel safe, knowing that help is always at hand. I hope you know that Koala and that the support is fantastic.

I meant to say welcome to koala this Bus is full of advice and support. and opal fruits

Thanks Babyjane - im still here too! after curry managed to sleep fitfully for 2 hours - woke up seeing strange bright red and white animations before my eyes - dream or hallucination ? I have seen them a couple of times recently but not so vivid. Its taken me a couple of hours to move from the safety of my bed raft to my sofa (so I guess I'm on the bus now with you guys!). Going to watch twilight eclipse on the telly and hopefully I'll be tired enough to get some proper sleep after that - my eyes hurt from being awake so long. Had a nice chat on the phone with both DDs - this journey is for them too. I have to keep remembering all the reasons I've hailed the Babe Bus and admitted my drinking addiction this time.

Greeneyed - I think I'm fine at the moment having some temazepan to take the anxiety away is helping - my doctor, even though he doesn't know the extent of my drinking problem says I'm addicted to them too! One thing at a time methinks, but thanks for your concern. Strangely I never mix the drugs and the drink, but I have to be careful not to substitute one for the other!
So I'm just taking either 5mg or 2.5mg every 6-8 hours.

Thanks for being there.