I was panic stricken the other day when I realised how few friends I have.
My kids have left home - just after uni ( no- not an empty nest syndrome) but I still work - self-employed from home. This means I see no one some days except DH. He has been ill recently for 2 years and is approaching 60. It suddenly made me realise how very lonely I'd be if he wasn't around.
I have 3 old close friends. One is a neighbour but they plan to move in a few years. My other two friends live between an hour and 2 hours away. I see them maybe once every 6 weeks as they are both very busy with family and work. I have maybe 4-5 other friends who are not super-close friends but met via work, and we meet up maybe once every few weeks.
I'm not the type of person to make friends easily- I tend to be a little hesitant at first to suss people out. My parents are elderly and live miles away and my brother and I have little in common- he's unmarried and no children.
I've this inbuilt resistance to joining clubs etc " just to meet people" but what else can I do? At the moment I can spend days and days alone except for seeing DH and my work clients.