The Brave Babes Battle Bus - Blowing Away The Cobwebs, Brushing Up The Leaves, Whilst Travelling On The Battle Bus, To Our Own Sobrieties.

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Hello I'm Mouse

Welcome to the Brave Babes Battle Bus, aka Gerald. It's a lovely place for drinkers, non-drinkers, wobblers and thinkers...... we're a really mixed bunch who all have one thing in common, alcohol.

Whether that be past or present, it can always be our future due to the nature of the beast.

Everyone can join this thread, the support is unconditional. And it is here for anyone who wants it, now or in a little while, there's always a spare seat or three!

Why not take a look at the journeys so far at the link below, it'll take you back through the last two (plus) years, and also I've posted a link to the very first thread....... the reason that we are all on the Bus in the first place

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FIRST EVER THREAD

(Cross post, Mouse! Thanks for the support and kind words x)

mouse one of my many therapists once told me that 'coping with mother' was what kept her in business

I think I'll carry on with the prozac, and quit the mirtazapine, which apart from giving me blissful sleep for the first 2 weeks, has been nothing but trouble. Reminds me of alcohol actually: it appears to help at first, so you carry on drinking and 10 years later can't even remember why you started... mind you, I see alcoholic analogies everywhere...

Right, Mr Hammond is on the TV, (I know but he is a bit dishy and can fit in my pocket for easy transport) so I shall bid thee all a goodnight.

Be Brave Babes xx

Ooh I think he is dishy too but just a tad to teeny for me. Cute though

he only looks teeny next to those great galumphs on top gear. He's still taller than me!

one of my many therapists once told me that 'coping with mother' was what kept her in business Joey I hope our children don't feel the need for therapy one day for that particular reason! How did you sleep? Don't remember waking up at all last night but took ages to drop off.

Purple you're scaring me. Christmas food shop done already :) Good luck with the statement Mouse, I think exH is trying to get one for June. Off to phone the tax credits helpline now, for some reason this month's payment is about 60% lower than usual so we might not be eating this week

soma slept very badly, called in sick, feel guilty and anxious.

DH at docs with bad mouth ulcers, told its stress. DD woke up covered in bites again, still no idea what that is, cannot see any bedbugs, dermatology appt. in 2 weeks.

we're all just a mess! but not drinking, thank god. going to sleep now, dog curled up beside me. how are you doing?

BOING!!! anyone miss me? i wont bore you all with my tales of woe, suffering and too much much work, but honestly, if anyone would care to ask i could be nearly persuaded to write for for several hours!

just had a quick look at the thread, lovely to see all the wonderful 'old' names, makes me feel all warm inside!

btw, just a thought about Christmas, i have had a couple of sober christmas days now, guess what?, im still here, it didnt kill me! in fact, staying sober can really help you cope with the bloody performances that you can encounter from other people, let them get pissed, be a prat, be boring, snore all afternoon.....whatever, you will wake up boxing day with a huge sense of well being!!

see you later lovely babes!!

L XXXXX

Joey you're under the weather and absolutely allowed to be off. No feeling guilty or anxious you hear? I'm hopeless when I'm off work too, even if I'm dying. Talk about taking the work ethic to extremes....Hope your dear ones feel better soon. It's very strange about your DD, just an idea, have you taken any photos just in case the bites wear off before you have the appointment? I'm good thanks, although I did have a twinge of the old anxiety earlier, but after a dog walk it went away. Our animals are so good for us, aren't they?

Lovely to hear from you JWN and to know how boingy you are. Write as much as you like, we all love to hear it :)

Hello there mouse, JWN and all the BBs.
Distract me with your busyness please- I'm in bed having had a tooth out less than an hour ago- feeling extremely sorry for myself, it's one behind the one behind my canine and will show.

Afternoon help. You have my total sympathy! I had the same tooth taken out a few years ago and was really depressed about the fact that the gap could be seen if I laughed. . Implants are currently costing £2200 - each! Was offered a bridge but that sounded waaaaay too much like 'dentures'!

Soba, everyone is shocked at my early Christmas shopping . I've very much been a last minute sort of person in the past but I seem to have the time, inclination and money for the first time in, well, forever! I kinda like this organised feeling!

Joey You do have such a lot on your plate. Do you know why you are feeling guilty and anxious - you're not drining, after all? You are doing an amazing job not drinking with all the crap you are coping with. Hope you had a good nap with the dog and that everyone is better soon. x

JWN Thanks for the uplifting words about Christmas. For the first time in years, I'm really looking forward to the festivities - and that's mostly down to the way I feel because I haven't been drinking. Just got to keep at it.

Worry How are things? You OK?

I just feel guilty for having time off, not sleeping is not an illness, and its probably my fault anyway for letting myself get stressed, DH thinks I should quit prozac

Thanks for the idea about taking a photo of the bites, poor kid has been suffering with this for 3 months.

soma what are you worrying about?

Joey, don't be too hard on yourself. Are you going in tomorrow? I wasn't worrying about anything in particular, I suffer from general anxiety which is a complete pain in the arse and very hard for other people to understand. The drugs control it pretty well most of the time though.

How's everyone coping with the approach of wine o'clock?

I do know what you mean, I have anxiety issues too and its a vicious circle worrying about not sleeping keeps me awake! I bet alfie is great therapy for you though?!

I was doing so well, but really craving some wine to take away the anxiety for a few hours. I still have some of that phenergan left over from the half-term flight from scotland...

I did have quite a bit of a 'wobble' when I was in the Co-Op shop - the wine was right next to where you had to queue for the tills and, as there was quite a few people to be served, I had to stand there for about 5 mins! But, I'm feeling safe now that I'm home. I won't go out again this evening. Good luck Babes. x

Well done purple not well soma didn't even get to my usual danger zone between 7 and 9 before I'd cracked, thinkiing about drinking all afternoon and buying cigarettes and have also ordered a takeaway-inner child\teenager reckons deserve all this and has teamed up with fuck it voice to make it happen - I am useless at the moment.

Well done purple not well soma didn't even get to my usual danger zone between 7 and 9 before I'd cracked, thinkiing about drinking all afternoon and buying cigarettes and have also ordered a takeaway-inner child\teenager reckons deserve all this and has teamed up with fuck it voice to make it happen - I am useless at the moment.

So sorry you are struggling today Green. You're not useless - you're just feeling really low right now. Maybe just let your inner-child have tonight - but only tonight? Tomorrow is a brand new day and could be a fresh start. Maybe try to put today's 'fuck it' notion to bed tonight and start again, afresh, tomorrow morning. Will be thinking of you. It ain't easy, that's for sure. Not even sure I've written the right things? Wishing you a good nights sleep. x

Yes Alfie is a real tonic Joey as I'm sure your doggie is to you. And sure wine relaxes you for a while but try to think beyond that. Are you OK Greeneyed? I know what you mean by the "fuck it" voice, it's so hard to ignore. I made myself a little pot of tea for one earlier and used a china cup and had a blueberry muffin :) It felt better than a glass of wine. Honest. Danger time is past now and I'm safe. Hope you're having a cosy evening Purple.

Too cosy Soma! Snuck into bed early (DC at their Dad's so no responsibilities) but then struggled not to fall asleep before 8pm!

I know, very well, the 'fuck it' moment and the 'danger' time. By accident I told the corner shop owner I had given up wine (his sales must have plummeted!). I didn't mean to as I don't want to make a big deal about it. He was trying to sell me two bottles for £10 (again) and I told him "Just Coke again tonight". He said "Oh, have you given up then?" and because I hadn't expected it and wasn't prepared with my usual answer of 'oh, just don't feel like it tonight', I said "Yes"! The upshot is that, even if I do have a 'fuck it' moment and I go back in there now I'm going to look like a right numpty. So, I'm lucky in that as long as I'm out of town before 3pm (my danger time), which I have to be for school pick up 4 days a week, I can't get any alcohol. Added to that I've been putting my jim jams on as soon as I get in so I'm not tempted to nip out 'cos I can't be bothered to get dressed again. I cannot (and do not) have alcohol in the house because I would just drink it - I just wouldn't have the will power to leave it alone.

I have a soppy dog too . Libby (the black Giant Schnauzer) listens to everything I say and puts her head on my knee as if to give support. Love 'em! What 'make' of dog does everyone else have?

poodle with an 'au natural' haircut - no pom-poms! see photo on my page.

I love schnauzers, especially the beards and eyebrows.

poodle with an 'au natural' haircut - no pom-poms! see photo on my page.

I love schnauzers, especially the beards and eyebrows.

dont know why that posted twice, sorry

Will post a photo tomorrow - hope the beard and eyebrows make you smile, joey . Night all. x

Purple, so jealous of your black giant schnauzer, I love those dogs! Thanks Soma, I'm okay, cross with self, need to get well so I can find some zest for life, sinusitis floors me. At risk of outing myself I have a big smelly beligerent golden retriever _ who I adore.