Red shoes, charming lesbians and pirates with taste...Dating Thread 24

[ChaoticismyLife]

It's the best I could come up with

As you were...

money? from art? snort!

could conceivably drag together a portfolio and send out some en spec inquiries. i regularly roll my eyes at illustrations in magazines and children's books...

well i'm not sure if it is just sex with dd's dad, I think becuase I am feeling crap I know he is the only person that was madly inlove with me. He would have done anything to be with me, but was messed up in his own ways and cheated and was very controlling.

So I dont want to be with him, and i know the controlling behaviour was wrong etc, but also really miss feeling loved right now...

If he cuddled me, I would feel completely cuddled as in phisically and emotionally. And Ive only realised this recently as before I was emotionally retarded and couldnt even reconise my own emotions. Now I do and its hard!!

Totally off topic and to make all us glum souls smile...On a different thread concerned with what bad presents MIL's have bought their DIL's. One woman wrote, "What does she do, open E-bay, bang her face on the keyboard and buy the first thing that pops up?" ROTFL! I had a MIL like that.

Anyway, hugs all round, we seem to be having a collective shitty time (I picked a great week to give up plonk!), but especially Snape, I think you've got someone else's share too, girl!

Anyway, hope that ditty made you smile. x

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moving.

god, we are all having a bit of a shit time huh.

have sorted out tomorrow with pirate. Im going to his and he is cooking.... going early at about half 6.... should hopefully take my mind off it.

AND -its my dogs birthday tomorrow, which is going to make me cry because hes 11. and hes my absolute best friend in the entire world. I dont like him getting older....

Come on folks it's Friday night :) grab your beverages, stick some tunes on/film/read book or whatever floats your boat. I just got the bad news that CSA payment is dropping by quite some amount and I have no idea how I will afford Christmas with four kids, two of which want very expensive things, but you know what, it's just not worth the worry. Things have a way of working themselves out in end.

Well and chocolate all round tonight.

Another full week gone and I still don't know about this flipping job. And DCs just back after a week away with their dad. Were lovely and delightful and thrilled to see me for the first hour or so and now they are grumpy and miserable and fighting. So what's new.

Oh, and told NYBoy I'd "chat" to him later but really CBA. I'm off to find something to drink.

fate - tonight you are a shining beacon of joy in a sea of miserable faces...:)

but yoga - did you manage to avoid mr60 all week? because if you did you should be congratulating yourself.

I am off chocolate due to stupid diet. Which is annoying cos I could eat a whole large Toblerone right now!

Still no messages on MSF. My useless friend has cancelled our night out tomorrow because she's 'ill' - which actually means her DP doesn't want her going out and she doesn't want to upset him And I had to stand all the way home on the train.

But at least it's the weekend...

Oh fate. Bless you for being a little candle in the gloom. Sorry to hear about your maintenance payments. I've just put 3/4 of my fortnightly maintenance towards two-bottles of wine for a tenner. Yes, that's right cunty-chops, spent 'your, CSA on booze (although as a tax payer, in a very circular way, I contribute towards his benefits....and the paltry CSA deduction is ally me getting some of my tax back....) and cunty-chops would spend it on booze anyway...

Always darkest before the dawn, what? Surely that means notebook will be met with tears of happiness.... .

watch - I did resist the temptation to see Mr60. so far I was feeling good about this too because he never writes/texts me first, I always get in touch with him and then he replies and v quickly descends into filth. And then I got a message from him last night, totally unsolicited, asking if any news on my job, no filth, just niceness. Sigh... and kids are out again tomorrow night

Now where's that bloody drink gone...?

Two bottles of wine to relax with is beneficial to children. That's my excuse and I am sticking to it! Though I have kopperberg and a comedy film

I know we all get down sometimes but life changes so fast. Look at sponge, one minute thinking there was no job to finding out there was one just got to roll with it and not get dragged down.

Watch - hope your date goes well tomorrow night. Will you be shaving your legs?

mah notebook is fat!

that is a sizeable notebook....!!!!!
also - huge csa payments there snape!! drink ALL of it.

fate - yes, yes i will!!! i doubt there will be any sex tomorrow though.

yoga - well done :) you do know hes texting because hes just confused as to why you havent text him... its all about his ego:)

sponge - you have more willpower than i!!! ( just opened the green and blacks i had brought to make a thank you chocolate mouse/that never looks right/moose/mousse for my mother/ step dad for help with the god awful work thing) have you viewed any profiles, sent any messages?

Ooh Snape, haven't seen you before, don't think you are on my fb! Nice to put a face to a name notebook is very fat! And I agree with watch, spend your obscene amount of CSA on wine entirely

Ok im talking to two guys that I messaged last night out of pure frustration!

One I have given my number to already and am texting!

The other one, said he is abit fed up, I asked why, he said because he has a broken back and pelvis! He is in the marines and had a bad parachute jump!! God I don't know what to say to him!

Part of me thought he was lying, but I don't think he is!

Snape - the notebook is massive! I really hope it all goes well! You have put so much work into it!

yoga I agree with Watch, Mr60 probably can't work out why you've not been in contact. Well done for not contacting him first though!

snape wow at the fat notebook, PM is a lucky man. And he best appreciate it :)

watch its not willpower its desperation. none of my clothes fit, I am feeling v v fat. I have to try and stick to it til Xmas in the hope I'll be anywhere near the same size I was last Xmas! I've checked and you cant see whos viewed (I was wrong) you can only see if you've been favourited (I haven't) or got a message (ditto). I've not subscribed yet - you have to in order to send a msg. I was going to give it a few days and see if I got any msgs...but nothing yet.

I'm going to end up back on bloody POF at this rate!

Would the world be wonderful if we all had someone to make us a notebook like that? Right, I'd better go talk to NYboy, I've probably kept him waiting long enough.

sponge - i know how that is!! am at my top most weight at the momment, seriously need to sort it out, am having an absolute panic about what to wear for new job. It has serious workware regulations, none of which suit my body shape at all, and im going to end up looking like and overstuffed sack of potatoes.

give it time with the messages - i dont think you will get as many messages as on pof. but its quality over quanity. Are you able to see ifother people are full members or not?

Yes, can totally sympathise - I have to start dressing smarter than I currently do as in new job I am supposed to be delivering training and all that stuff. My new boss is very glam, very blonde and at most a size 10. she looks fab in suits, I look like a sofa. Meh.

I know I have to be patient with the messages- I don't do patient very well though Cant tell if others are members - for all I know everyone in my area might not have paid! that would be typical.

Weight wise (sorry, I know, dull) dukan is a fucking marvel. No carbs for 5-7 days (no cheese either, madam) and then very slowly reintroduce, but top-end your day, so you can have good-carb (whole meal seedy) toast for breakfast, but then ignore them for the rest of the day... Plenty of low carb threads on MN. I've stopped weighing myself, can't be arsed, but I have so many people double-take, say 'oh! I didn't recognise you!' It's bloody lovely. I'm still me inside, but people do think stuff based on weight.

I'm not jo brand anymore. I'm Christina fucking Hendricks. I'll never be waif-like, but I'm gonna work what I've got, plus those amazing sweaty endorphins from a good work out are slightly almost kind of like sex not really

Ok, really don't want to make anyone feel bad but having the same problem with work clothes only in reverse. I lost 20lbs last year when fucker XH was cheating because I found I just couldn't eat (I love food but I literally couldn't swallow, everything just caught in my throat). Interestingly, this was before I even knew he was actually cheating. Anyway...I am eating again now but by some miracle haven't put the weight back on. I'm ok in my jeans and leggings but work clothes are literally falling off me & I can't afford anything new right now. Maybe I should just eat fuckloads of M&Ms just so I have something to wear to work if I do get this job...? (Sorry, not expecting any sympathy on this one)

Meanwhile, am IM chatting with NYBoy. Not only is he dull but he really doesn't get...well, anything. Why am I bothereing?

Sorry that everyone is having a shit time - maybe a misalignment of the stars or something?

Hatesponge - your profile sounds abolutely lovely! And I'm sure that the only reason you are not inundated with messages is because the kind of bloke who would be attracted to you is out having fun on a Friday.

Speaking of having fun, I really am dreading the whole "Back to mine/yours" with the bloke I'm seeing - I mean, I have a child in the house. Always. (He sees his father maybe three times a year.) And the bloke lives a considerable distance from me, so I wouldn't be able to go there and get back in time for the babysitter. I Am Doomed.

That notebook is spilling over. He ought to love it.
(PS, dig the tats)

Oh yes and EiePie that bloke sounds like a bit of a headcase - needy and controlling as fuck. Sorry that what seemed promising turns out to be a pain in the arse but to my mind you are well out of that one.

And watch, definitely come up with a payment plan for your HB arrears - tenner a month, tops. Tbh they usually deduct around that amount automatically, but if they don't then just do a budget sheet (and overbudget like hell wherever you can - the CAB should be able to help you with it - there is a certain amount that is deemed 'reasonable' for bills which you can put down and it won't be questioned, even if you're spending much less than that).

Oops sorry not arrears - overpayment.