The Brave Babes Battle Bus - Turning Over Autumn Leaves In Search For Our Own Personal Sobriety

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Hello, I'm mouse and my best friend used to be vodka. We were inseparable at the time, such fun! Wild nights out, wild nights in..... danger, excitement, strangers, not knowing where I was when I woke up, oh it was all so fantastic.....

Not the case for the last couple of years or so, since I found this Bus.

Now, we are practically strangers. Don't get me wrong, I still abuse alcohol and use it to self-medicate which completely defeats all of the work I've put in, trying to see my life through sober eyes but that's just how I do things......

Anyway, that's enough about me so why not come say hello to the others on the Bus, we're all at different stages of drinking, not drinking or complete abstinence (of the drinking kind!)

No-one on the Bus wears judgy pants, nylon bloomers, leopard skin thongs? Maybe...... I wouldn't like to ask to be honest! But we are all here for the very same reason, we can't (or don't want to) control our drinking like 'normal' people do.

If you'd like to see how this all started, why not have a look HERE and read about one of the most inspirational ladies you'll ever 'know'.

You can also follow the threads, one by one, by clicking on the links on each thread towards the end, leading to the next etc......

See you soon x

joey you are truly ace and amazing, you have given me and others support this weekend you have been suffering with health problems and you are are day 18 AF.bl*y well done, keep going .

saf hope you have managed to get out of the ring and walk away. If not I am sure you will soon. You are strong you will get back on track . Thinking of you.
nono thanks for the kind words, forgot to say love the kittens and so

What happened to miflaw was it really the man himself who posted or an imposter

Evening, tis me, Mouse

I have had dinner cooked for me by DH and our lovely friend. It was devine but I just have no appetite currently. I think it's the weaning off the meds and the fact that Nemo has a cold.

He's poorly, like, really poorly. I'm having him in bed with me tonight and hoping I can soothe and settle him as much as posible.

Rural - how was today?

Saf - how are you lovely? Is the sidecar in need of an expansion? We've got a shed load of cash saved up from the booze we've not bought...... maybe we can get some nice fleecy blankets for snuggling, some lush hot chocolate in giant mugs, posh biscuits? We need comfort.

Autumn is here... I love it once the grey bit gets lost. The bright sun and deep red, orange and copper colours of the trees, leaves, plants, the golden surroundings we have are wonderful.

The grey I hate.

Anyway, hope you all had good days, I'm going to try and get Nemo settled and find out why my fecking spell check no longer works! Grrrrr, technology!

Joey - sure, the drink will plump up the meds but the booze will also give you side-effects that you really don't need. Big hugs xx

I need to go...... I'm so tired and you are all so ace and I want to stay to chat. Be true to yourself. No matter where you are on the Bus, BE HONEST. xx

mouse look after yourself, love and hugs to nemoxx Im ok honestly my time will come. Take carexx

evening babes

I'm in the sidecar tonight but i've only had 2 glasses and have stopped there.
Well done to the babes who have resisted.

Hope that all those poorly children feel better soon- poor things. Hope we all get a good night's sleep tonight. night babes.

Rural - it will and when it does, you'll need support. You'll find it here and in lots of other places.

Stay safe xx

Gugg - I've had two glasses (125ml) of white wine today (Sunday used to be a an ALL day drinking affair) but it was with dinner and then desert.

I didn't really enjoy them because by the time I got to drink them, they were warm....................

I don't miss wine.

Off to take Nemo up to Bedfordshire for a goods nights sleep I hope.

Night all, I am really going now. xx

aww thanks rural tbh surfing mumsnet was distracting me from my woes on Friday night! I hope things are going better with you.

isinde chickenpox x 2?! blimey, the shops will run out of calamine lotion. If there is any consolation, apparently adults who are exposed to chickenpox develop immunity to shingles.

Again, apologies for not having read back, but just want to record that my 'last night' of drinking white - so I let myself start drinking at 5 ish instead of 6 - really wasn't all that. Ended up feeling a bit grumpy, a bit cheated, a bit guilty, a lot pointless.

golden I think thats my main reason for quitting. The physical benefits have been minimal.

But emotionally - every night I would go through that feeling of resentment, feeling cheated (because I would only allow myself a couple of glasses of wine, and it wasn't enough) My mind is a bit calmer now.

Been reading and listening to your stories.

I am at a strange place right now with my drinking. I go for days at an end AF and then have a blow out. Then another couple of weeks of nothing and another blow out. At the moment the blow outs don't cause cravings. Just seems like every couple of weeks or so I want to drink a bottle of wine. I guess this is dangerous? Can anyone who knows better than me advise?

Oh and having got rid of my lurgy for about 3 days I now have another effing cold. Temp of 38 (normally 36) and shivering. Wtaf?! Since I have been on this bus I have has virus after virus. Is that normal when you stop drinking every day?

Morning babes. Just popping on to say it's my 11 year anniversary today! Despite all the stresses, I haven't relapsed; thanks to you all for your encouragement and your analogies. Having some cheerleading makes all the difference

Morning babes

Motivation monday today and since I managed a reasonable (for me that is) af week last week I'm going to write down how I've benefitted. I feel much clearer and I'm getting more jobs done, they are only simple things but I'm not chasing my tail constantly. I've lost a little bit of weight and my fingers feel slimmer, probably less water retention, ( I don't have fingers like sausages ,promise). I'm sleeping well, have more time for Ds and when something went wrong work wise this am instead of blowing my top I got on with it and found something constructive to do.

nono and golden september I find that plateau stage hard too, it's as though I can get to a certain stage but lack the courage / drive to go further. Any ideas about how to get through the 'I've had enough stage'? Perhaps we could all support each other along.

hello mouse how are you today? yes, I look back on all day drinking sessions, of which there were many and wonder what I was thinking? It was bloody horrible feeling that ill and dealing with the hangovers.

well done gilb (sorry if that's wrong, my eyesights rubbish and i can't always tell i from l in print) 11 years! Come on, what's your story and how did you do it? How did you get past the 'oh fuck it' moments? Or did you just stop?

Stay safe lovely babes , 'specially those poorly ones!

guggs what you said about 'when something goes wrong... I got on with it and found something constructive to do' really strikes home with me.

Before when I had problems, I would usually ignore them (or hide under the duvet!) knowing that I could have a drink later which would 'make everything go away'

Now I'm finding that I actually have to Sort It Out. Last night I was still in pain, and washed-out.

Old joey: I can't face work, I'll have to call in sick. But I'm not that bad, really. I feel so guilty, and worried. I can't wait to have a drink later.

New, improved Joey: the main problem is the walk to work. So maybe you have to look into renting a parking space closer to work. Yeah, I know, not fair having to pay for parking just cause you're not well. Boo-hoo. Get over it.

And the funny thing is I actually feel better just having taken a bit more responsibility. I don't think I'll 'need' any wine tonight

Just checking in. Thanks for all who replied to my post on previous thread. Feeling much less down, even though I have the Bus Bug!

Still in sidecar, but have managed to cut down.

Had my yearly check up and blood tests. However, I don't think they check liver function - does anyone know if they do?

Hi greyhound When I had blood tests at the doctor I had to tick the let box myself! Not sure if that's the norm though. Mine were slightly elevated. I haven't been back to have the little chat they wanted to have. I know what she'll say anyway! And I'm dealing with it

Let!

Lft!

my phone doesn't like that word surely. Either do I.

Eleven years. That's just... wow. Amazing.

I'm not going to worry about my health and job and not being able to get a parking space at work even though I'm prepared to bribe someone.

Joins isinde in lalaland...

Afternoon, tis me, Mouse

IsinDe - I know you're going to roll your eyes at me (and I'll dutifully roll them back to you) but the DTs getting the pox together is better than one at a time. You'll most likely find that will all ailments that they get, they'll do sharing!!

Piriton oral suspension is good for the itching and they can have that now..... "Chlorphenamine maleate. Fast relief from the symptoms of: Hayfever and other allergies e.g. pet, house dust mite & mould spore allergies. Nettle rash, hives, heat rash, prickly heat & dermatitis. Reactions to food, food additives, medicines & insect bites. Also relieves the itchy rash of chickenpox. - Suitable for children 1 year & over - Also relieves the itchy rash of chickenpox - Fast relief from the symptoms of: skin allergies; food allergies; pet allergies; hayfever; house dust mite allergies; mould spore allergies; insect bites" - worth a go? Big hugs xx

Gilb - 11 years is a amazing, well done!

Saf - are you feeling any better today, thinking of you.

Thurso - you okay?

venus - you too? Not seen some of the Babes about for a while.......

Grey - thank you for posting that you're feeling a bit better, re the blood test I'd ring and ask as Koti says but if they are doing a full bloods screen, then I'd say that yes, they will check your LF too.

Must go and make some lunch...... soup today. Had an awful night with poor little Nemo, he was sick in the night and I had to strip him off with him half asleep. He hates that. So, poor old DH has been relegated to Nemo's room again.