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HELP! My dh is trying to decide..........................

93 replies

busybusybee · 19/03/2006 13:07

  • whether or not he loves me
  • whether or not to continue with our marriage

I feel absolutely desparate

Please help, all words welcome :(

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beetroot · 19/03/2006 21:08

Good advice MM.

Why will you lose your job and your house if you split?

busybusybee · 19/03/2006 21:15

Because we live and work together. The job and the home are rolled into one inseparable package.

If we split, I will chuck him out and I expect I will be allowed 3-6 months to stay on here until I can sort myself out. I wouldnt want to continue here without dh. If he goes I go and I guess that means single parenthood in a council flat (we moved here from a council flat)

I cant wait [sarcasm emotion]

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Radley · 19/03/2006 21:28

Hey, you can get some cracking council flats, i was living in one when I met dh, we have always said that if it had been two bedroomed then we would have stopped there and not bought this house.

I can't even begin to imagine what you are going through, it must be so so hard.

He should really be sat down discussing it with you, not leaving you hanging on like this.

zeg · 19/03/2006 21:32

hi busybee

i'm sorry you're having such a rotten time. he sounds like a dick to me, but it's you who are married to him and who loves him. you have no control over his decision, you must continue to be you. therefore, i'd quietly look into plan B, as such, so that if he decides he doesn't want to be with you, you have choices and know what they are and can keep yourself busy with the practicalities of getting your life sorted.

i hope you get the answer you want, though

monkeytrousers · 19/03/2006 22:31

BB, I’ll probably not get your CAT until tomorrow and I’m at uni until teatime but I’ll defo get back to you by tomorrow night. In the mean time, like I said, don’t despair.

Tribot, this isn’t an attack at you but what you spelt out in your post is exactly the shallow, easy, patronising, get out of jail free cards that all the worst women’s magazines spout – so I’m blaming them not you, I hope you can see the difference. It’s so easy to be seduced by the ‘I’m a woman and I am powerful and have choices and needs and rights” that is typical of this empty rhetoric.

You say, “On the other hand, there are some key indicators for the "trying to get a bloke to act not like a bloke" thing that women have a tendency to do:

  • expect him to talk about things openly and directly
  • be willing to read self-help books
  • be willing to consider counselling at anything other than gunpoint.”

By expecting him to talk openly and directly, you mean the way you (not personally) want to frame things. Well compromise works both ways, and when you have a ‘strong’ woman ‘demanding’ to be heard no one is empowered. Men and women are individuals and the way to get through to each other is by knowing each other not falling back on vulgar and meaningless platitudes that work in 2D articles but most commonly end up in ‘partners’ being unwilling to compromise and so separate.

‘Read self help books” – if my DP shoved one of these in my face I would leave him. All they spout is exactly the same generalisations that will guarantee you never chime with one another. Too easy, too late. It tales more work that reading crap prose to save relationships.

“…counselling” only if you are willing to face your demons too and accept that if you admit to any you deal with them on your own time, not joint time, ask no favours and expect no back slaps for doing the very least you can do.

I can falsify you claim that blokes just ‘don’t do stuff like that” ie, try very hard to make their relationships work in the face of staggeringly stupid people of both genders who listen more to strangers on a website than they do their life partners.

My god, that’s a bit strong and I’m not diminishing Mumsnet or my friends on here for a moment. But a friend who only feeds you platitudes is no friend al all, that, is in fact why I like Mumsnet above other parents forums – I’m put thru the ringer often times and I’m a better person for it. But never, even if I post on here about DP, would I assume that anyone knew more about our relationship that us both did. I’d appreciate the advice, but I’d never leave the person I created another child with for it. Relationships are bloody hard, not all the time and forever of course but anyone who says otherwise is Anne Widdecombe. Abuse is abuse but tough love is tough love too. The trick is to know the difference.

Sorry for the long post but if I really swallowed all the stuff that passes for power feminsim these days I'd be a basket case, literally.

Dior · 19/03/2006 22:53

BBB - I'm intrigued about the things that he wanted you to change...did you try to change? Were these things really important, or just something something to throw at you when he needed ammunition in a row?

We all do things that annoy the other partner. Dh always puts coloured washing in the basket when I have sorted out a white wash...annoying, and I have mentioned it, but he still does it. I wouldn't use it as a reason to leave him though! I'm not making light of the situation...I do feel for you. I also know that, if I were in your situation, I would probably wait for dh's decision, and kick myself for being a fool. It's easy for us to tell you to make him leave.

I'm sure that your dh feels uncertain about the future. What did he do behind your back?

quanglewangle · 19/03/2006 23:41

"I know that a large part of the problem is me. I talk to much about everything and anything. I dont allow dh space to think and 'be'. Im always asking questions about conversations he has had, money. I think he feels not welcome in his home because im always tidying up his book, sunglasses, wallet, mug - whatever stuff he leaves lying about. He feels crowded out by me, as if he is not allowed to be the real him "

Some would say you are just being attentive and caring. A lot of men would apprciate this.

If he decides to stay could you accept being constantly on edge in case you are irritating him? Not able to speak without wondering how how would take it?

Maybe he should change not you and try and become more accepting of your good nature.

quanglewangle · 19/03/2006 23:43

Bloody hell, just realised he is complaining about you tidying uo after him!!! Shock
This mus be a first on mn!! Grin

Radley · 20/03/2006 07:48

busybusybee, I hope today is a bit brighter for you.

beetroot · 20/03/2006 08:51

yesbb, am thinking of you

vouge · 20/03/2006 10:12

me too hope you ok xx

Molton · 20/03/2006 12:53

BBB

Just coming through a situation that has some similarities to yours. My tips:

  • Relate - fantastic. As is their book "Staying together - from crisis to commitment " (second time I've plugged this - I honestly don't work for them - but this one helped me understand why it happened.)
  • Give him space, but keep talking (on his terms)
  • You need to understand what he needs from you and make the necessary changes so you can do that. EQUALLY, he must do the same for you (be open and honest)

BUT and this is a big but, you need to find a middle ground that you are both happy with. We did lists of each area to discuss and talked through each.

  • Look after yourself. Make sure you have things going on other than him and a tentative plan B.
  • Hang in there.
  • remember, everyone else will have a view, but they will all be biased in some way. You and your H are the only ones that matter in this.

I hope all goes well.

meowmix · 20/03/2006 13:13

hmmm. Is he by any chance ever so slightly enjoying the drama of the situation? a number of my friends have had exactly this done to them and the DH has then trotted off to his mates/family and been FULLY indulged because he was "having a tough time". In each case they got bored after a week and came back to their grateful wives who then indulged them somemore.

Sometimes life can seem drab and without ever rationalising it like this, people can think "I'm bored, I'm not living la vida loca, if I wasn't married I would be, but if I think that then maybe I don't really love her..." I'm not saying that in any of these cases that the bloke planned or thought through what he was doing, I know they felt it very strongly at the time. Its a cross between a toddler tantrum and teenage angst.

But I do think you need to put a timeline on this - you asked someone to tell you it'll end soon - only you can make it end really, tell him you need a decision by x date and stick to it.

PeachyClair · 20/03/2006 13:29

people can think "I'm bored, I'm not living la vida loca, if I wasn't married I would be, but if I think that then maybe I don't really love her..."

Yup, I'm guilty of that one! many years ago I made Dh's life Hell for ages, going on about wanting to go / didn't love him / big mistake. Actually, what I meant was : I'm really struggling trying to adapt to my new life and being alone bar the kids all day while you work 60 hours a week plus 20 hours travelling is making me feel desparately as if I need an escape route. I'm sad and depressed and very lonely and I need some help'

Fortunately I have a fantastic Dh who waited it out (and got a new job) but I will never tot his day understand why, it was truly awful for him.

The thing is, I did feel i meant it at the time. It was only when things occasionally brightened- holidays, time together- ir ealised that life was OK.

i'm not saying that is what is happening here really, I don't know, it could be. I guess I am just validating Meowmix's post.

meowmix · 20/03/2006 13:32

can't say I haven't had those moments myself!

Have to say BBB that the reasons he's given you are not the kind of thing that reasoned thought would say end a marriage. Thats what made me wonder.

Have faith, it'll work out in the end one way or another

Lio · 20/03/2006 13:41

Hi busy, sorry not time to read all posts, but actually I think you shouldn't call it a day, or not yet at least. I take my hat off to you for being able to see the things you do that wind him up – I know I am a cow to dh sometimes, but find it hard to admit it to him. I once read a book about 'fixing' relationships and it pissed me off mightily because, in summary, the advice was for the woman to do everything possible to accommodate her man. I think this is no good as you would surely just feel resentful, but knowing what the problem behaviour is is a good start. Can your dh rationalise his behaviour in a similar way? This is where a third party (relate or some other counsellor) would be good. I don't know what your problems have been in the past and perhaps that not as important as how you (jointly) dealt with them. I wouldn't give up on my marriage without trying to fix it first.

busybusybee · 20/03/2006 19:51

Hi all, thankyou for all your concern and encouraging help and words.

YES today has been a better day - I think!
I will write some more a bit later when I have worked out how to express them!

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Ulysees · 21/03/2006 13:39

glad to hear it BB Smile

busybusybee · 21/03/2006 21:35

Well its Tuesday now and Im still not entirely sure what is going on.

We are still friends. He has been quite lovely today in his own quiet sheepish way. But he isnt talking about things which isnt helping me

Sometimes I feel so tied up with the stress of uncertainty that I feel like being physically sick. My stomach is in knots.

gotta go he is comingin now!

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busybusybee · 21/03/2006 22:07

He has agreed we should go to Relate. The problem with that is we live in a rural area and have only limited time off. Also we will have to arrange child care for our 20 month old dd.

Its so difficult wondering what he is thinking and not entirely sure what he is up to

The good news (I think) is that he is being gentle and kind towards me. He helped me cook a meal this morning cos he realised I was feeling awful. He is helping with the kids. And he was able to tell our colleagues that "Yes WE are feeling better now" when asked if we were ok.

Those are good signs right??

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beetroot · 21/03/2006 22:29

really glad he has agreed to go to relate bb.

not sure i could hold my tongue with the 'yes we are' comment...is ths the royal we????

Maybe , if you are distancing yourself from him????, he is starting to feel scared???

monkeytrousers · 21/03/2006 22:54

Very good signs! He loves you.

Piffle · 21/03/2006 22:59

if you are anywhere near my rural area I'll help out!

Ulysees · 22/03/2006 09:10

Glad things are looking up BBB Smile

Don't forget like Piffle said mumsnetters will help out. I'm in the north east if I can be of any help? I'm not a hairy trucker honest! Grin

diddle · 22/03/2006 14:47

busybee - those do sound like good signs, at least he's making an effort. i hope that relate does the trick.
i'm sure you could both get some time off from work and childcare and sort something out, remember how important this is.

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