I'm a regular poster.
I was treated like shite by 'df' and 'dm' left.Df went off with vile woman(nev er worked,bigot,racist,her off spring were out of school one of whom sprayed me with aerosol and set alight to which my father said I asked for).
My mother left to start a new life etc.
I managed to get a job as a nanny in Majorca but had nowhere to live on returning.My grandmother put me up but hated me for it and bought me a one way ticket to London to 'feck off to'.
I got to London.I used my savings then credit card to put myself up in a dirty b and b in Kings Cross and worked as a stripper.
I ended up being a prostitute
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Nobody once called me and asked how I was.
I've been beaten,raped and homeless.
My father supports his awful partner and all of her dc who have never worked and they all claim benefits and smoke all day and he shows nothing for me...
Fast forward a few years-I have two beautiful little boys,a partner who has an okay job in London and through his parents we've been given the chance to get on the property ladder to a very modest house not too far from London.
But
my dh is abusive.
It's happened 5 times in 6 years plus he's hurt ds1 who is now 4 twice.
Last night 'dh' threw me across the kitchen.I am black and blue.
This morning I had a drs apt and the nurse asked why I was so bruised and then asked if my dh hits me.It all came out.
I had to go back for another apt this afternoon and now social services and health visitor etc will be involved.
I told my dad tonight about everything and he said 'and theres you putting this little act on that your life is so perfect haha'.
I have never told him what I think of him and how disgusting he has been leaving me homeless as a teen,not calling or finding out about my whereabouts as a young woman and being abusive to me etc.He said 'oh there we go again say what you want you horrible liar bla bla bla you're stupid you're an idiot etc'
he didn't care about my life now infact he was laughing saying 'oh you've always tried to maintain you're something great but it's all a big fake act really isn't it ?
I then said he failed me as a father to which he swore and cursed me and now I feel deflated,empty and crap.
I have nobody.I hate him and my 'd'h is downstairs on the sofa and the last thing the nurse today was that I may well have to live in a refuge with my lovely boys and declare myself homeless.My eldest is starting a lovely school next week down the road.He has his uniform ready,he has friends already.
I've been up the creek enough times I don't want it for my LOs.
I'm scared of what to do next